The Irwin Update

Do You Love to Read??? {And A Giveaway!}

2011-10-24T09:52:00.000-05:00

This is actually my 100th Blog Post, and I see it quite fitting that it is associated with a GIVEAWAY!!!

I was given the opportunity to review a new DaySpring product...their fabulous recordable storybooks! You've seen those Hallmark commercials on TV, right? Where the kiddo is getting ready for bed and they sit and giggle while they hear their Grandparents read them a story...making that story come to life, even when they can't be there with them in person? Love the concept. Makes my heart all warm and fuzzy as I think about our (God-willing) future children. BUT I love these even more, because they take it a step further...they share the love of Christ! There is so much power in spoken word, and I believe God works so strongly in the lives of children. These books are awesome.

DaySpring has four Recordable storybooks available, and I know they are all wonderful. The one I received was Bedtime Prayers and Promises and I just love it!

Since we have so much family out of state, these books will be such a blessing to our children. I can't wait to get some foster (and/or adopted and/or biological) kiddos into our home so we can share these books with them and teach them about our great big, awesome God who LOVES them!

And now for the best part...DaySpring is also hosting a giveaway on their website...you could have a chance to win one of these fabulous books! Go here and enter...all you have do to is leave a comment on their blog post. There are so many ways you can enjoy these books...whether or not you have kids. You can record the story and then donate the book to your church nursery. You could have your kids record the story and send it to a soldier fighting overseas. What are your ideas? Do share! And don't forget to enter DaySpring's GIVEAWAY before October 31st! They even have information on how you can participate in a future product review as well!

Pssst . . . . here's the link to the giveaway in case the above quicklinks didn't work: http://www.incourage.me/2011/10/recordable-storybooks-how-to-weave-the-love-of-christ-into-a-child-and-a-giveaway.html
Pssssst . . . . DaySpring gave me this product free to review, and all opinions stated in this here blog are my own J

Who needs lies when we can have Truth?

2011-10-14T15:32:00.000-05:00

Satan is the father of lies. It’sbeen that way since the beginning. InGenesis 3:1, it says “Now the serpent [Satan] was more subtle and crafty thanany living creature of the field which the Lord God had made.” His main goal is to steal and destroy (John10:10 - The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I [Jesus] have comethat they may have life, and have it to the full). One of the ways Satan can attack us and stealour joy, purpose, and worse – our ability to focus on God’s purposes for ourlives – is to feed us lies. He’s beenfeeding me some doozies lately, especially with regards to our most recentfailed adoption.

The good news? God’s word offerstruth to counter each of these lies. Ineed to cling to the truth of His word more than anything right now. Don’t get me wrong, God has not promised us achild (like he did Abraham and Sarah in Genesis 17), but I don’t feel like He’scalling us to close the door yet. Icertainly don’t want to “stiff-arm” my way to motherhood if God has acompletely different purpose (which, btw, is always best) for my life. I’vebeen seeking Him to really examine my heart and show me very clearly if He’s asking us to give up this dream. The tough thing with our miscarriage and 2failed adoptions is that they don’t necessarily mean He’s saying “no.” It couldbe an opportunity for us to trust Him beyond our circumstances. But, on the other hand, if He is telling us “no,”I want to listen. So far, I don’t feel apeace about closing that door…so I’m asking Him to make it very clear to us ifHe wants us to do so. Here are some ofthe lies Satan has been throwing at me, and – more important – the truth Godgives to counter them. This is probablymore for me than for anyone reading, but I want to have a tangible reminder ofGod’s words to cling to (and throw in the enemy’s face).

Lie:

“What a waste.”

Currently, this lie is mostly targeted on the fact that we now have to update ouradoption home study again (it expires November 2^nd). Frustrating for two reasons…it reminds usthat another 12 months have passed while we still wait with empty arms, and inour particular case 7 of those 12 months were spent waiting on an adoption thatdidn’t end up happening. We were “offthe market” for 7 months since we were chosen by a birthmom who ended upchanging her mind. I will be honest andsay that this fear was actually the very first thing that came to my mind whenwe got that call back in March saying we’d been chosen by a birthmom (yay!) andshe wasn’t due until October (yikes!). Humanside of me says “wasted time”…truth is that God is not surprised by any ofthis. This home study update (as well as having to re-do our lifebook,background checks, etc) costs a pretty hefty chunk of change. We’re not rolling in dough right now (and no,I don’t blame Wall Street…I guess I’m not on board with all that "occupy" stuff...but that’s a whole ‘nother issue).Nevertheless, my selfish humanness thinks about how many “better things” we shouldbe spending that money on.

Truth:

“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory inChrist Jesus.”
-Philippians 4:19

Pssst: God promises us riches, but not ofthe sort we're used to pursuing here on earth. The riches God blesses us withare spiritual riches, namely the grace of Jesus Christ and the spiritualbenefits of following him (wise words, taken from here).

“Seek the Kingdom of Godabove all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything youneed.”
-Matthew 6:33

Pssst: This does not mean He will provide me with an iPhone, or a new laptop,or a great vacation…He really means “needs” here J

Lie:

“Can you really put your heart intothe hands of some girl and not expect her to break it?”

I have struggled with the feelings that “we’re too far away from Tulsa toreally make a difference with CPO’s ministry” and “it will get harder andharder to really invest (emotionally) in these birthmoms as much as I want toas trust gets broken again and again.” After all, I could never do what they are doing, so how can I not expectit to fall through each time? Pinninghopes on any human is a sure-way to be disappointed. But I know these feelings are Satan’s sneakyattempts to thwart an awesome God-orchestrated story that will (hopefully)reach even beyond our wildest dreams.

Truth:

We can trust God with our hearts.

“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart [see, he can be trusted with ourhearts!], and do not lean on your own understanding [this is a very good thing,because I don’t so much understand right now]. In all your ways acknowledge himand he will make straight your paths.”
- Proverbs 3:5-6

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”
-1 Peter 5:7

So, this post is full of brutal honesty (and not necessarily things I’mproud of…just being real here). I wish Icould say I had as much grace as people think they see in me lately, but the truth is,I am full of many questions and not a whole lot of answers. However, I refuse to let the enemy feed melies when I know I have a Heavenly Father who loves me more than I can evenimagine, whether I’m “feeling” it or not. Thank you, Lord, for giving us the truth of your Word that never failsto counteract the enemy’s lies. I choosetruth. I choose You.

Photo Contest!

2011-10-11T17:30:00.000-05:00

So...before this whole failed adoption #2 thing, I entered us into a photo contest here with a local photographer (hoping that we'd have a fun new family pic once baby came). She actually forgot to put us on the facebook portion of the contest, so we're really behind (other pics got "likes" that she's counting, but we weren't included). After facebook slapped her hand for holding a contest there (who knew?), she's continued the contest on her blog instead (using comments as votes).

We need to catch up!

Would love for you to go comment here on Amanda's contest blog post

(if those quick links didn't work, copy and paste this into your browser to get to the contest post and make a comment):

http://ww...w.amandaeatonblog.com/category/uncategorized/november-session-giveaway-3/

and leave a comment voting for our picture (I think we're #11, but hover over our picture to be sure before you comment)...we could win a free photo session with Amanda Eaton Photography valued at $500 :)

Ends on Sunday 10/16...please, go comment! Help us catch up and win!

Tell your friends!

Thank you!

Blessings...

2011-10-09T15:52:00.001-05:00

"Blessings"

By Laura Story

We pray for blessings

We pray for peace

Comfort for family, protection while we sleep

We pray for healing, for prosperity

We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need

Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You’re near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You’re near

And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win

We know that pain reminds this heart

That this is not, this is not our home

It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

And what if a thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You’re near

What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy

And what if trials of this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are Your mercies in disguise

Sometimes He Calms the Storm...

2011-10-07T22:38:00.000-05:00

...and other times He calms His child (lyrics from Scott Krippayne). We received a phone call this morning from CPO with the news that "J" had sent them a text message letting them know that she has changed her mind. Failed adoption numero dos for the Irwins (so far, we're 0 for 3 in this parenting thing...1 miscarried pregnancy and 2 failed adoptions). We are - of course - sad, and confused, and frustrated, and confused (oh, did I already say that?), but we also are 100% in support of "J's" decision. This little guy was not our baby, and although we really hoped that we would be blessed with the opportunity to parent him, we fully stand behind "J" in this decision. We also stand by our resolve to praise God when we win, and praise God when we lose (we got that quote from the movie Facing the Giants...if you haven't seen it yet, you totally should). As hard as it was to get the phone call this morning, we actually see it as an answer to prayer. We have been in the midst of a 2-week period of no communication from "J" and were becoming a bit anxious that this little guy's due date on the 13th would come and go, and we'd be left wondering. It was hard to get the phone call from CPO this morning, but it would have been so much harder had "J" simply disappeared entirely. Last night, as I was browsing through Pinterest (my latest fun pasttime), I came across a picture of Romans 12:12 written on a piece of paper. When Steve woke up to go to work, I showed it to him, commenting on how perfect it was as we were waiting in the midst of a lot of unknowns. It says:

"Rejoice and exult in hope; be steadfast and patient in suffering and tribulation; be constant in prayer"

I cling to that even now. We are in no way giving up on this journey of becoming parents through adoption, and we are excitedly jumping right back into foster parenting with both feet as well (we'd put ourselves on hold for a bit, as the trip to Oklahoma for our pending adoption approached). We absolutely love what CPO is doing through their ministry to birthmoms and are so glad to be involved with them, and will continue to be. We still cling to the truth of the Bible that our God is awesome, sovereign, loving, and good. All the time. Even when we don't understand, even when we aren't necessarily "feeling it," we know that He is good. Now that doesn't mean that we're happy with how things turned out, or that we aren't disappointed that our 3 1/2 year journey has been delayed yet again, nor does it take away the sting of the many upcoming babies happening among our family/friends as we continue to wait on something God has not yet revealed to us. BUT...we can take a cue from Paul in Philippians 4:11-13 when he says, "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength" (and this dude was in prison as an innocent man, wrongly accused, when he wrote this! If he can do it in those circumstances, we certainly can rejoice amidst ours)!

I spent most of the morning revising our Lifebook ("J" has the only hard copy, and we need to send a new one so CPO can start showing our profile to prospective birthmoms again). Luckily, CPO has us create our Lifebooks in Shutterfly, so they are easy to reproduce. Our current Lifebook was done last year after we moved to Kansas, so it was full of pictures with Norman. Unfortunately, I had to replace all those pictures, since Norman is no longer with us (talk about adding salt to the wound, huh?). It is all ready to go now, and we'll get it ordered/sent tonight or tomorrow. Then, we wait...again.

We've been so blessed by the prayers, encouragement, support, virtual hugs, and excitement from our family and friends as we've been on this latest adoption journey these past 7 months since being chosen by "J." We certainly appreciate all of it, and we are really doing ok. We have a 6th anniversary to celebrate tomorrow, and although we'd hoped to be celebrating under different circumstances, we still have so much that we're thankful for. God has brought us through so much these past 6 years, and I know there will be many more trials and tough times. That's life, ya know? The difference is that we have an incredible hope, and boy, has that hope been made more real to me in the past few years than ever. We've been able to live in the knowledge that "the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:7). That is the only way I can describe the peace we feel, because it sure isn't coming from us...we'd be wrecks if we didn't have it.

Still praising our God...

30 Day Shred - Day Thirty!!

2011-09-27T22:39:00.004-05:00

Mission accomplished! I completed Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred in 30 days! So glad to have made it all the way...and now begins the real discipline: my plan to continue "shredding" 3-4 days per week while mixing it up with some running, etc. I was kind of over the shred today knowing it was my last day, so I'm ready for a break. Only thing is...it can't be too much of a break because knowing myself, if I fall off the wagon, it gets harder and harder to get back on it.

I have been doing the shred first thing every morning (which is tough when I already don't like getting out of bed, but oh, so worth it when it's done and I have the whole day ahead of me). This morning, I had Bible study at 9 am, so that meant an early date with Jillian and then being out of the house before Steve came home from work. I sent him a quick text to let him know I finished my shred and was off to Bible study, and then headed out the door. When I came out to my car after Bible study, I noticed something on my windshield. As I walked up to the car, I saw a beautiful red gerbera daisy (one of my faves) and a note from my sweetheart inviting me out to lunch to celebrate the successful 30 day challenge. How amazing is he?!? Turns out he was parked a few rows away watching the whole thing and he called me as I started my car (he was afraid I was going to drive away!). Such a great surprise! Steve took me out to my favorite sushi restaurant and then to our favorite frozen yogurt place. I sure love that man. And I declare this 30 Day Challenge a huge success!

To top off our amazing day, we had an appointment to meet our pediatrician this afternoon. He was the one recommended by all of my KC friends, so I pretty much knew we would be going with that practice. But it was cemented even more after meeting with him today. It was a no-cost "new patient" consultation, and he spent 45 minutes with us! Such a great doctor, and he answered all of our questions, as well as gave us some great advice for our time in Oklahoma before we bring our little guy back to Kansas. Now we just need that sweet baby boy to get here :) Only 16 days until his due date...keep the prayers coming!

Zoo Adventure

2011-09-21T21:58:00.005-05:00

We have had some beautiful weather here in Kansas…a bit of a warm-up the last couple days, but today we settled back into gorgeous Fall temperatures. I used to hate Fall, but realized that I only hated it because it led to Winter. Fall is actually my favorite season now! Anyhow, to take advantage of the wonderful day (and a “buy-one-cookie-get-one-free” coupon I had…haha), we ventured out to the Kansas City Zoo. My parents give us a zoo membership each year for our anniversary and we love it! Free dates all year long! I can’t wait to bring kiddos to the zoo, but Steve and I have also enjoyed several trips to the various zoos in places we’ve lived since we’ve been married (the Minnesota Zoo, the Oklahoma City Zoo, and now the Kansas City Zoo…all wonderful in their own unique ways).

We seemed to get to the zoo at naptime…all the animals were asleep! Luckily, they were also taking advantage of the nice weather, so they were all napping in the sunshine and we could still see them. Adorable! First, we saw the leopard…snug as a bug in a rug. Doesn’t look so dangerous when it’s sleeping, huh?

Then, we hung out with the gorillas. This one was all curled up by the tree.

This guy was Steve’s favorite. He was just chillin’…

I, personally, was fond of this guy. He was sitting in a pose that seemed to be saying “Wazzup?” which totally reminded me of my Dad (anyone that knows my Dad will understand this...and no, I'm not saying he reminds me of a gorilla).

As I was getting my phone out to send a picture to my Dad, he decided it was naptime, too.

I could have hung out with those guys all day…but we kept trucking along the Africa exhibit and came upon a pride of lions. Aren’t they amazing?

In keeping with the spirit of The Lion King’s recent re-release into theaters, we checked out the Meerkats (Timon, anyone?)

Two of them were completely out cold, but one still had a bit of exploring to do.

Until he decided it was also sleepy time. Haha!

Don’t worry; they always have a buddy on the lookout for any predators.

This is actually called the Sentry. Their role is to watch for predators or other potential dangers. The zoo is quite educational!

Our final animal stop along the way was the Rhino, who was also quite tired. The shadow of his eyelid makes it look like his eye is open, but he is also sound asleep.

Thus concludes our Kansas City Zoo Nap Tour. Well, except for a quick stop for our cookies on the way out…yummy! We had such a fun day at the zoo. Hopefully next time we go, we'll have a stroller in tow!

30 Day Shred - Day Eighteen

2011-09-15T23:31:00.004-05:00

We're well over halfway, folks! I am so excited about keeping up with this challenge. Even when we were out of town on Monday (we got to meet our birthmom for the first time!), I wrote down the different circuits and their respective times, and Steve talked me through the entire 25ish minute workout right there in our hotel room. I actually think I probably worked out even harder that day because I moved right from exercise to exercise (while using the DVD, I sometimes slack a bit while Jillian explains each move). It felt so good to continue the Shred even when I wasn't in my own living room. Still working Level 2 and it is still kicking my tail each day, but it definitely feels better than it did the first few times I tried it :) My plan is to move up to Level 3 on Day 21...I'm already nervous about it. Once this 30 day challenge is done, I plan to keep up with the Shred, but more on a 3-4 days per week basis, and also add some running to the mix as well. Like my friend Kellie has said, I don't want to go through this part of the whole "getting used to working out" again (i.e. crazy soreness), so I am really hoping to stick with it after this 30 days is complete!

Here's to 18 days down, 12 to go! Day 19, here I come!

30 Day Shred - Day Twelve

2011-09-09T19:29:00.004-05:00

Whew! I'm still truckin' along with the 30 day shred. It seriously is a great workout, and I feel like I'm getting more toned than I thought possible in a short time. That Jillian knows what she's doing :) Yesterday, Day 11, I moved up to Level 2 of the workout. I'll admit, I was a bit presumptuous in assuming that it "can't be that much harder, right?" Ummmmm...nope. Definitely not right. Yesterday's workout was a doozy! Today did feel a bit better, but I am already dreading my planned move to Level 3 in 8 days. I can't imagine what that is going to be like. Wait, would this situation qualify for the "Don't be anxious about tomorrow, for today has enough worries of it's own" verse in Matthew 6:34? Yes. Yes, I think so.

This has also been my biggest work stretch since I started at Starbucks 9 months ago. I worked 6 of the last 7 days...and one of those days, I worked in the morning and then went back to work the evening/close shift. Luckily, I love my job and the people I work with! But it has definitely been a busy week. Soon, I won't have the luxury of extra time to pick up more shifts at work (thanks to a certain little bundle arriving in October! Yay!) so I figure I might as well get the extra dinero while I can, right?

Well, that's my update. My fellow shredders are also still on the wagon! A couple had to take a few days off due to illness or travel plans, but we're all still in it! I am so excited to see the benefits from our hard work. And yes, I will admit fully that it is hard work (but oh, so worth it). Onto Day 13!

Finally...the Moment We've Been Waiting For...

2011-09-05T23:32:00.005-05:00

This has been announced on Facebook, and elsewhere, but I need to make it "Blog Official." Mostly because I want to use this as a memory book of sorts, so I need to be sure it's recorded here!! After lots and lots (and lots) of waiting in our journey to become parents...we have been chosen by a birthmom!! It seems to get more and more real as the due date gets closer, so I figured I'd better get this recorded on the blog pronto!

We actually got the call back on March 27th. We found out there was a birthmother that picked us, and was due this fall. Whew, what a wait! We are so, so thankful for "J" and the gift she is giving us...a baby boy! He's due October 13th. Just 5 1/2 weeks away! Since we found out so early, and haven't had a lot of communication (bummer...we are still praying that we can build a relationship with our amazing birthmom and her family), it just hasn't seemed very real. Now, things are getting closer, and we are having a hard time keeping our excitement at bay. We are cautiously optimistic, and continue to pray for "J," her family, and, of course our sweet baby boy!

Another answer to prayer is that we get to meet "J" next week! We pray that she will see the light of Christ in us, and that there will be peace for everyone involved based on this meeting. It's such a blessing to be able to meet our birthmom before this little guy is born, and we pray that God can use us in "J's" life so that she knows just how loved she is by our family. Anyone that knows me knows that I just want to smother her with love, encouragement, and affirmation, but the road of open adoption is a tricky one. We have to really be sensitive to "J's" needs/wants/desires and make sure that above all else, she is comfortable with the relationship that we have, no matter how open it is.

I'll leave you all with some answers to the most common questions/comments we've been getting. Thank you for being a part of this journey! This is just the beginning!

Do you have a name picked out?
We have been slow on this one. I think we've just been really guarded about the whole thing, and it is a big job to name a child! We have given him a couple nicknames up to this point, as I have enjoyed playing up his meteorologist daddy. We've been calling him "Hale Storm Irwin" and "Storm Chasen Irwin"...haha! These are not the real names we're considering at this point...hehe. We are close to settling on a name, but we're going to see if "J" wants to have any input. We'd definitely be open to that! We've also decided to keep the name a surprise, so once we do actually decide...you will just have to wait in suspense! :) Don't worry...not much longer!

You'll probably get pregnant now that you're adopting.
Oh man, if I had a quarter for every time someone said that to me. :) Everyone seems to "know someone who knows someone" that has adopted and then subsequently conceived a biological child. This could definitely happen (especially since we've had no proven infertility), but it is actually statistically not common. This is one of those myths that can give the wrong impression, so I wanted to "debunk" it here. Even if it were the case, we'd hate for our adopted child to ever think that he or she was simply the catalyst we used in order to have biological children. We've always said that our desire, first and foremost, is to be parents, regardless of how God chooses to build our family. Although most people that make the comment that "you'll probably have your 'own' child now" are well-meaning, it can give the implication that our adopted children were not our first choice. We can't wait to see how God builds our family, and hope that our friends and family understand what a blessing adoption is in its own right. Adoption is definitely not "Plan B" for us :)

What if "J" changes her mind?
Well, that is definitely a possibility. Adoption is never a sure thing. That is one reason why we are so invested in caring for the birthmom first. We want to be sure she knows we're 100% behind her in any decision she makes. The bottom line is, this is her baby first. We would be absolutely honored if she entrusts us with this sweet boy, but we also understand that we are not entitled to him by any means. This is one roller coaster that we are happy to be on for the long haul. We continuously pray that God keeps our focus outward, and not on ourselves. Some days this is easier than others, but He is faithful, and we can trust our hearts to His care. No matter what happens in this situation, He's got our backs. How awesome is that?

That's all I can think of for now, but if anyone has questions, please don't hesitate to ask! We love educating people about open adoption (as we've had a lot to learn, and will continue to learn along the way). It's such an incredible thing to be a part of, and we wouldn't change our journey to parenthood, regardless of the twists and turns we've had over the past 3 1/2 years.

More updates to come! We're so excited to meet "J" next week, and we definitely appreciate your prayers as we continue this journey to our first child!

30 Day Shred - Day Eight

2011-09-05T23:18:00.005-05:00

Whew! I've made it 8 days in row! I don't know that I've ever worked out eight days in a row before...this is an accomplishment! Even during my high school days on the synchronized swim team, we practiced 6 days a week, so I had a day off. The fact that the Shred is only 20 minutes long (ok, 22...my friend Jessica timed it...haha) makes it easy to commit to and follow through. I figure I waste that much time (and then some) every day, so what's 20 minutes out of my life each day? And it is such a great feeling to know that I'm making a good choice toward being healthy and taking care of this body God has given me! Now I need to get better about the eating part :)

The soreness has definitely worn off, but I still feel each workout, which is satisfying (then I know I'm still pushing myself each workout). My goal is to move up to Level 2 after Day 10!

So thankful for my Shred buddies who are along for this ride with me! It has really helped keep me accountable!

30 Day Shred - Day Two

2011-08-30T19:52:00.003-05:00

Oh. My. Word. I haven't been this sore in awhile...but it is such a great kind of sore (painful, yes, but it means my muscles are responding quickly!). Thanks to my proclamation from yesterday, I felt quite obligated to get the Shred done before leaving for work today. I am so glad I did. I basically hobbled around all day at work, though. Sat down for 20 minutes during lunch and realized upon standing up that it had been a mistake. I could hardly walk! Uff da! Jillian Michaels...you are right...20 minutes can lead to quite an effective workout. I'm sold. 28 days to go...

30 Day Shred - Day One

2011-08-29T19:30:00.004-05:00

A few months ago, I purchased the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD and it's been sitting happily in our TV stand cabinet, unopened. A few weeks ago, I started saying that I wanted to get through an entire shred before October 13th (the reason to be revealed "coming soon to a blog post near you," but most of you readers are people that know why that is a special day). Well...October 13th is coming soon, and I'm running out of my 30 day window!

I mentioned the Shred (that's what we people "in the know" call it..."The Shred"...since we're cool like that) to my friend Jessica, and she mentioned that she has been struggling with motivation in her weight loss journey. I'm all about creating healthy habits, rather than just participating in trends based on how I'm "feeling" at a particular time, so I jumped all over the idea of the two of us holding each other accountable, while also blogging about it (another wonderful form of accountability!)...she agreed - probably in a moment of pure insanity - but agreed nonetheless! Then, our friend Kellie and Jessica's friend Erin saw our challenge posted on facebook and asked if they could join, to which we said OF COURSE! The more the merrier (what can I say, I'm a people pleaser, so the more people I have to "not disappoint" the better). We're happy to have the company, so if you want to join us, please do!

Now, for the report. Day One was good...more intense than I thought it would be (ok, so it was more like "picking up the remote to turn off the DVD at the end was a challenge" kind of intense), but we all did it! We're in 3 different states, so thank goodness for the internet to keep us in touch and accountable! I am looking forward to this jump start in getting more in shape and toned, but really the biggest thing is discipline for me. I am happy to be making better choices and forming healthier habits.

Tomorrow will be a bit tougher for me, as I work at Starbucks from 7:30 - 3:30. I worked full time in the business world for 10 years, but retail is a whole different monster...8 hours wipes me out! My plan is to do the Shred before work so I don't have to worry about putting it off when I get home. And now that I have told the entire blog world...I'd better make it happen! Onto Day Two!

The Hills Are Alive {Again}...

2011-08-23T21:21:00.007-05:00

Remember this post when I had that insane dance audition? I couldn’t believe when Theatre in the Park posted the cast lists for their summer season and I was on one of them! I had the privilege of being cast in the role of Sister Margaretta in The Sound of Music. I know…this is the third time I’ve done this show, but I've played different roles each time (Liesl in 2001, Ensemble Nun at Lyric Theatre in 2008, and now Sister Margaretta in 2011!). Plus, I was named after a character in it, so I figure it’s ok. Haha! It was such a great experience, and of course I met some amazing people. Performing on that huge stage at the largest outdoor community theatre in the country was a pretty awesome thing. What made it even better was the fact that I had so many family and friends come and support me, some from as far as Minnesota and California!

Here are some pictures of the show. You can also go to the photographer’s website to see (lots) more.

Natalie (Mother Abbess – isn’t her make-up job amazing?), Jackie (Maria), and me

This is what happens when you have a lot of time between scenes…nuns playing cards

Featured Nuns with Franz, the butler. From L to R: Natalie (Mother Abbess), Rachel (Sister Sophia), Tom (Franz), me (Sister Margaretta), and Joyce (Sister Berthe)

And some goofiness with Maria!

Natalie’s folks brought her this sweet bear for opening night. She took on a character all her own. Meet Sister Masha.

“The Liesls!” Me and Bethany (Liesl)

Nice close-up of Jackie and me. I was so blessed by new friends in this cast!

And of course, the kids who stole the show…the Von Trapp Kids!

Sabrina (Marta) cleaning up the dressing room. Child labor??

“The Von Trapp Children don’t play, they sweep”

Millie (Gretl) was helping Bethany (Liesl) with her make-up. This is community theatre, after all.

Me and sweet Avery (Brigitta). The kids had some quick costume changes, and I was Avery’s helper.

I’m hoping to be able to do another show with Theatre in the Park next summer…it was such an incredible experience!

Did I mention...

2011-08-04T20:57:00.015-05:00

...how blessed I am? As I go back through the pictures that I need to post here, I am reminded of how God has surrounded me with so many amazing people. Family and friends that support me, love me, and make me who I am. Since I've moved around so much in the last several years, many of "my people" are out of state. Some in Minnesota, some in California, some in Oklahoma...all places I've lived in the last seven years. How lucky am I that people came from as far as Minnesota and California to come see The Sound of Music? For two weekends in a row, we had the blessing of friends and family visiting and I know that is such a statement of God's provision in our lives. He has not only provided Steve with a job here in Kansas that uses his very specialized degree in Meteorology, but he's also provided support for us wherever we land. And then that support system continues to be a part of our lives even as we move from place to place!

Our first June visitors were Steve's parents (I have incredible in-laws, by the way) and also my best friend Gretchen, her mom Diane (who is really like one of my other moms), and her sweet little boy Aden (her hubby Ryan had to stay back and work - bummer!). We had such fun while they were here. Of course, we took them to Shawnee Mission Park and they braved the heat and enjoyed the sunshine with us. Steve and his dad got to do a little fishing, too! They caught (and released) some good ones.

We also had a little visitor while fishing...gave me the heebeejeebees! Ewwww!

Saturday afternoon, before Gretchen, Diane and Aden left, and before our call time for that night's Sound of Music performance, we had a great barbeque at the park. Here's Aden enjoying his dinner. Isn't he precious?!? Love that boy.

It was wonderful to share that time with family and friends, and we got even more of the same the following weekend when my parents, my brother Eric and sister-in-law Katherine, and my friend Kristine came into town. It had been seven months since I'd seen my parents and Eric & Katherine, and five years since I'd seen Kristine!

Of course, besides providing them with entertainment in the form of a lovely evening of theatre (pronounced theat-ah, for effect), we also put my dad to work. Haha. I am in the process of making cloth wipes (to go along with my hopes of being a cloth diapering momma), and asked if I could use their serger to allow for better looking edges on the fabric. My dad loves a challenge, and it had been awhile since the serger had been used, so he enjoyed navigating the trickiness that is the serger. Unfortunately, by the time we figured it out, we only had time to serge two wipes. Oops! I'll be finishing the rest soon.

It was also fun to take them to a couple of our favorite eating venues. We don't go out to eat much, so it's fun to have a reason! There is a fabulous little brunch place near us that makes the most incredible food! If you are ever in the Kansas City area, I highly recommend checking out Eggtc (catchy name, huh?). Based on the smiles, I think our guests approved (Eric and Katherine hadn't gotten to KC quite yet...they'll have to take part in the deliciousness next time).

Another favorite was a trendy new self-serve frozen yogurt place called Peachwave. We are enamored with this place. They sent us grand opening coupons in the mail, which proved to be an excellent marketing tool, because we keep going back! Kristine and I ate there almost every day that she was here...for reals. It's that good.

Here is my brother and his lovely bride.

Seriously...look at these masterpieces. YUM!

And, well, you guessed it...we went to the park. It was pretty hot out, so we didn't stay long, but we did come across some cute little families. These yearlings (teenage geese, as I like to call them) kept getting closer and closer to us as they picked through the grass for bugs (or whatever they were hoping to eat). Their dad walks right up to us and starts hissing! Seriously, dude, keep your kids in line, don't hiss at us when they are getting in our space. Geez...parents these days. Ha!

We had so much fun with our 2nd weekend's worth of visitors. And an extra bonus was that Kristine stayed with us for a few more days before heading to Vegas (she is one busy girl! So many vacations to take, so many people vying for her presence!). Kristine is a chef, and an avid Food Network fan. She's visited several restaurants that have been featured on the show Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives. Kansas City is famous for its barbeque, so she did her research and introduced us to some amazing BBQ! The best ones are the hole-in-the-wall places, and it was so much fun to discover so many new places to eat here in KC! One of our favorites was Woodyard BBQ...it was so good! They even let Kristine cook! Well, maybe...

We're so blessed to have had lots of visitors in June. Thanks everyone for coming to see us, and supporting another one of my theatre adventures! Next up...pics of the show! Can't believe it was over a month ago...this summer is FLYING! What fun things are you doing this summer?

Month of Ups and Downs...

2011-06-30T22:36:00.003-05:00

I'll touch on each of these soon in their own separate blog posts, but here are a few highlights of our past month:

-Up...I got cast in one of the shows at Theatre in the Park! You can guess based on this blog post that I was very pleasantly surprised to see my name when they posted the cast lists for the season. Was honored to play Sister Margaretta in their first show of 2011 - one of my personal favorites (for obvious reasons), The Sound of Music. SUCH a blast...they are already onto their 2nd show of the season (my, how time flies!) and I am so happy to now be a part of the Theatre in the Park family!

-Down...we said goodbye to our baby, Norman, over Memorial Day weekend. He was suffering from cluster seizures and we had to make an agonizing decision to put him down. One of the worst experiences we've had to deal with as a couple (rivaling Memorial Day weekend 2008, when we miscarried our first baby)

-Up...we completed the process to become licensed foster parents! We cannot wait to welcome some kiddos into our home, yet our hearts break as we realize their world will be rocked by whatever circumstances lead to their need for temporary care

-Up...we had great times with several groups of visitors who came to town to see The Sound of Music. My best friend Gretchen, along with her mom and her son Aden were among the first. Then Steve's parents came, followed by my parents and my brother and sister-in-law. So blessed with their visits! My friend Kristine also came to visit all the way from California...and I hadn't seen her in 5 (way too) long years! Again, more to come in separate posts.

So...mainly "ups," with a very sad "down." Even in the sad parts, though, we are just so thankful for what God has given us, where He is bringing us (as a couple, and also closer to Him), and the people He's used to bless us. I can't wait to fill you in...

At long last...the call that {almost} changed our lives forever...

2011-05-19T08:55:00.014-05:00

Well, now that it's been almost 4 months since this occurred, I'd better document it for my patient reader(s?) :) You may remember from this post, that Steve and I had a pretty exciting several days back in January. We'd just had a great day at the park Cross Country Skiing and enjoying God's amazing creation and were at home relaxing and watching some Jeopardy (I know...another wild afternoon at the Irwin's place!). My cell phone rang and it was the director of CPO (our agency)...she was needing a copy of our original home study, because she couldn't find it. She said that they were getting pretty busy, and she wanted to be sure she had immediate access to our file, rather than continuing to look for her other copy. "No problem," I said, feeling so great to be in touch with them again. As you probably remember, our agency's primary purpose is as a ministry to birthmoms in crisis pregnancies. Many of these birthmoms choose adoption plans for their babies, so they need to have families for these babies - "providing families for babies, not babies for families." Anyway, since they are taking such great care of these birthmoms (CPO supports these girls through either choice: parenting or an adoption plan, which is one of the things I just love about them), coupled with the fact that we are out of the Tulsa area, we don't get to be as involved with them as we'd like to be. This also means that we can feel "out of the loop" in many ways. We completely stand behind CPO and their ministry, so we understand that it's not about us...it's about these girls. But still, it was so nice to hear Cheryl's voice, reconnect, and get to talk to her for a bit.

After I hung up the phone, I actually lamented to Steve a little bit (warning: selfishness creeping in here). I mentioned that I'd finally been able to stop constantly thinking about our adoption and becoming a mom, etc. and had begun enjoying life and "moving on," I guess you could say. My way of protecting my heart after almost 3 years of disappointment, I suppose. Either way, I don't ever want to "move on" or stop thinking about our adoption, because even if we don't know our birthmom yet, we still need to be praying for her every day! I think there is a big difference between contentment in our "now" and just flat out not trusting that God's best is really the best, regardless of how it compares with my perceived "best." I was definitely leaning more toward the not trusting God, and just conceding that He didn't care about me or my desires so I should just give up.

Anyhow...so we started making arrangements to fax Cheryl an extra copy of our home study and went on with our evening. Then things got interesting :) She called again about 20 minutes later and told us the actual reason behind needing our home study so quickly. There was a birthmom who was basically due that day, and she wanted to make an adoption plan. Her parents didn't even know about the pregnancy and she wanted to keep it that way. Cheryl said she (birthmom) was in touch with the CPO Doula (how cool is it that they provide a doula for these girls?!) and that the doula (Lisa) would be in touch with us soon to give us an update. Steve and I looked at each other in shock, and started making phone calls - just to our parents at that point. It was so fun to tell them that they might be grandparents so soon!! We were in a state of shock, and sort of panicked about what we still didn't have and needed. We made a trip to Target while in a bit of a cloud, I filled in our HR manager and my Team Lead about the possibility of us needing to head to Tulsa soon, and we picked up a few onesies and bottles...we had no idea what we needed to bring. After a few conversations with Lisa throughout the next day, we decided it was time for us to drive to Tulsa. We were so blessed to be welcomed into the Wyatt's home again (they were the ones that hosted us during the Waiting Families Workshop in November).

As we got to Tulsa, things were still so crazy and up in the air. The only contact that any of us had with this birthmom (BM) was over Facebook and/or email...I think Lisa had talked with her on the phone. It was a heartbreaking story (normally, I wouldn't be disclosing any of this, but once you get to the end of this post, you'll realize why it's ok). During that next couple days, things started getting a bit strange, and pieces of this story were falling apart. I won't go into details, but even as I think about the whole situation now - 4 months later - I still am so impressed with what a very believable, intricate story it was, and how things seemed to unfold and progress so naturally. As you can probably guess by now, it was not a case of the birthmother changing her mind (which is definitely a possibility in any open adoption, and we would completely support a birthmom in her decision to parent), it was a complete scam. But, here's the amazing thing. God protected our hearts in such a huge way! We went down to Tulsa with the attitude of supporting this particular BM, and not even focusing on the possibility of becoming parents. We had a strong prayer support system during those several days, and we could just feel God's peace. I think the most upset I got at the end was strictly embarrassment for "falling for" a scam...and it was short-lived. You see, there are enough "unbelievable" stories out there that do end up being completely real, that it is just too much of a risk not to support these girls when they need it. And though this particular case was a scam in terms of a fake birthmother, the fact that someone was reaching out for help remains unchanged. I pray that she - whomever she is - still saw the light of Christ in us. I just can't regret showing love to someone that clearly was reaching out for it. Another blessing was that it gave me an opportunity to talk with a birthmom for the first time (real or not), which can be an intimidating idea. And we could put our actions where our mouths have been this entire time. We of course want to be parents, but the whole reason we signed on with this particular agency is that we want to partner with them in their ministry to these birthmoms, whether we are blessed with a baby or not. God gave us a chance to actually demonstrate that.

So there you have it. The call that {almost} changed our lives. So much changed as a result of that one phone call. And although it didn't change our lives the way in which we always envisioned "the call," it refocused our perspective on God's plan for us to become parents. We now remember how important it is to pray consistently for our birthmom(s) and our future child(ren), even though the who/when/etc. details are not yet completely tangible. We were able to continue moving forward with the process of becoming licensed foster parents. We have taken the opportunity to prepare for a child to come into our home, rather than "let's just not think about it until it seems like more of a sure thing." Oh, and we also got to spend a few days with a pretty incredible family...

God is Good - ALL the time!

¹³ You created every part of me;
you put me together in my mother's womb.
¹⁴ I praise you because you are to be feared;
all you do is strange and wonderful.
I know it with all my heart.
¹⁵ When my bones were being formed,
carefully put together in my mother's womb,
when I was growing there in secret,
you knew that I was there
¹⁶ you saw me before I was born.
The days allotted to me
had all been recorded in your book,
before any of them ever began.

Psalm 139:13 - 16

Pas de bourrée, Pas de bourrée…aaaannnddd…Jazz Hands!

2011-03-28T22:13:00.001-05:00

So I had an audition on Saturday…my first audition since I performed in Annie last summer at Jewel Box Theatre in OKC (hmmm…did I never actually blog about that?). Anyhow, we’ve had a lot of exciting changes in the past year, which doesn’t lend well to a hobby that involves incredible time commitment. But my husband is wonderful, awesome, supportive, amazing…and gave his full support for me to audition for the Shawnee Mission Theatre in the Park’s 2011 summer season. I have been looking forward to it since…well, basically since we moved here and I found out our favorite park had a Theatre!

Turns out this theatre has some roots. I think they are in their 42nd season and they have incredible turnout for their shows, both in terms of the sheer number of people wanting to be a part of them, and also the people that have made it into family traditions going to see the shows each summer. Last year they had over 730 people audition and they were expecting an even larger turnout this year! No pressure.

I prepared and sang my little heart out here at the apartment, practicing my 16 bars until I could sing them without even thinking about it. Of course, singing in front of the mirror/wall at home, or in the car, is quite different than entering a big room, looking at the 16 people that are watching and listening to your every move/note (somehow having to compare it with the other 700 people they’ve had to listen to in a two-day period) and belting it out. And belt it out I did. Except that my song wasn’t really a belting song. I just got so nervous about projecting that it came out. It’s a crazy thing, the audition experience. It’s like you are in an alternate reality, having full conversations with yourself while you’re singing a mere 16 bars of a song, saying things like, in my case, “oh no! This came out as a belt…how can I fix this? Help! That’s not what this song is supposed to sound like...hmmmm...maybe I can save it with the last note? I wonder if I’m even looking at them anymore. I can’t seem to will my body or voice to do anything it’s supposed to! This is SO not like it was at home in front of my mirrored closet doors or in the car. Can I get a do-over, please????” You know the feeling…or maybe not.

Anyhow, not pleased with how that went, I was off to the dance audition. At that point, I pulled a little bit of a Joey Tribiani (minus the whole "lying on the resume" thing, of course). Ever see that Friends episode with Joey’s dance audition? This one? (It won't let me embed the video...but I promise, it is worth the 4 min and 15 seconds to check it out)

Yeah, so I learned the easier combination and then the choreographer offered a little “add-on” for the intermediate/advanced dancers. Since I have zero years of formal dance training, I OF COURSE thought I should give it a try. So while the rest of my group went into the wings to continue working on the more basic dance combination, I and one other guy – who happened to be in ballet tights and a t-shirt (should have been my first clue that this was for professionals only) – stayed to learn the more ~~exciting~~ ~~difficult~~ impossible dance combination. Suddenly I was reliving that dance audition of Joey’s. The choreographer starts off slow and all of a sudden takes off like lightning (or whatever else is really fast). All I could do was stand there and stare blankly at her. I laughed (out loud, I think), picked my jaw up off the floor, and politely excused myself to the wings to play with the rest of the amateurs. So that’s how my audition went. Once we were actually doing the (easier) dance combination in front of the judging choreographers, I felt ok about it. But hmmmm...overall, I’m thinking if I get cast in one of these shows, it will be completely due to the grace of God. At least I got a fun (funny?) story out of the deal! And really, I love the entire process of theatre, even the audition process, so it was a great experience. Here's hoping for a miracle!

Still Waiting...

2011-03-15T19:16:00.013-05:00

I know I've kept you all in suspense of the call that (almost) changed our lives forever...and I apologize that the suspense will continue for a bit longer. It worked, though, didn't it? I'll post about that soon, I promise. But today, March 15, 2011, is the day marking seven months of waiting for the call. The one that really will change our lives forever. Seven months down, unknown number of months (weeks...days...years?) to go. Uff da, the open-ended nature of adoption is tough (yup, I said uff da...proud Scandinavian here). I'm not gonna lie. Even as we rejoice with our friends that become pregnant and have babies, or even our other "waiting" friends who are chosen by birth parents and then bring their sweet babies home (and please don't misunderstand me, we ABSOLUTELY do rejoice with them...God is SO good!), it sure is hard to wait. And keep waiting. And wait some more. Especially since our wait actually started long ago, when we lost the dream of parenthood the first time back in May 2008 when we miscarried.

As we see it happen for "everyone else" (I know, I know...not everyone else), it sometimes feels like we are on the playground at recess waiting to be picked for a team, and watching person after person be selected as we stand in the line waiting, hoping to be good enough to be chosen. That's the raw honesty of it. Open-ended waiting sucks. We have no due date. No excitement of decorating a baby's room (since we have no idea when our baby will be here and/or even if we will still be living in this apartment). No baby showers. No doctor's appointments. Not even shopping for baby clothes (since we don't know what season to buy for). Just lots of waiting.

Man, that part of God's refining is not fun, is it? Of course, the fact that I'm handling this wait so incredibly well (hehe...note sarcasm) could very well be a reason we are still waiting...God is doing some big, hard, wonderful, painful, amazing, wouldn't-change-it-for-anything refining in my heart as we go through the process of preparing for this awesome challenge of parenthood. It goes from "well, the wait could be anywhere from a few days to a few years" (but what I really mean is that it will probably be closer to the "few days") to "oh crap, we really could be waiting a few years or longer" to "hmmmm...maybe I'm just not meant to be a mom. I really thought God gave me these gifts and desires, but maybe not...poor, poor me" to "no more pity party here, but maybe I really do just need to move on. Maybe God has something else out there for us and we are limiting Him because we just won't let this parenthood thing go." I have to constantly rest in God's truth and what I believe are promises He's given, otherwise I second guess everything. And believe me, I have. Feelings of doubt can rob us of so much, especially as we try to be diligent in waiting on Him for something we are confident He's promised us. Here's a quote from a great book I read that I felt like I could have written myself: "When I stood around talking with other women, I felt somewhat like an imposter. I was incomplete, not quite a part of them, having failed what I perceived as the true test of womanhood: the rite of motherhood." (taken from The Infertility Companion by Sandra L. Glahn, Th.M. and William R. Cutrer, MD).

Infertility (or "delayed parenthood," as I like to call it in our case...since all of our infertility tests came back normal) does crazy things to a woman who has a strong desire for children. It can turn motherhood into an idol. It can cause her to be prone to schizophrenic tendencies, where it seems that everyone who posts about their kids or pregnancies is directing it straight at her saying "see what I have that you can't have?" It can cause her to isolate herself from people that she loves, because it hurts to be around them and she just doesn't feel like she fits in because she's not "one of them." And then as she cringes when friends tell her "I'm pregnant!" she feels awful because she wishes she could have that head-over-heels excitement she used to have (like a real friend should have, right?) instead of feeling like she just got punched in the stomach again. Again, raw honesty here.

So...how can we find hope and encouragement, even during an agonizing wait for something we trust that God has promised us? And it could be anything, not just motherhood. This is simply my current challenge...there have been many others and I'm sure there will be many more as life is filled with refining fires. These past couple months, I've been blessed with an amazing group of ladies at a Tuesday morning Bible study as we learn about Abraham. We're going through Anne Graham Lotz's book The Magnificent Obsession and it's all about Abraham's journey as he longed to know God more intimately. He waited on God's promises to him (one of which was to be a father and have descendants too numerous to count) even as those promises seemed extremely far-fetched (he and his wife Sarah were old!) and didn't necessarily make sense based on what the circumstances were at the time. Abraham was carried through by his faith in the truth of who God was (is). He dropped everything to go where God told Him to go...even if it meant leaving his home, his possessions, and everything he'd ever known! And even as He exercised great faith, there were times that he acted on feelings instead of truth (and took matters into his own hands), which turned out to be clearly away from God's path. We so often say "oh don't worry, God, I got this...I'm not sure You can handle this the way it should be handled." But what we (at least I) tend to really be saying is "I'm not sure I can trust you since my circumstances just don't seem to line up with what I'm wanting to happen." Or, if we are really honest with ourselves, we might be saying "I'm not sure I'm going to like what You have for me, so I am going to force things to go my way instead." Oh, the blessings we could be robbing ourselves of when we look right past God's truth, God's character, and God's promises and settle for good enough, instead of God's best.

As we are on this journey and sometimes can be overtaken by doubt, self-pity, or just plain frustration that things aren't happening the way (or the speed) that we'd like (and this can be applied to anything...I just use our journey to parenthood as an example), we have to remember the truth of God's character, His wisdom, His divine authority, and His incredible love for us. And if we truly want to be walking with God (which I absolutely do), we have to walk in the same direction and at the same pace (great snippet from Anne Graham Lotz). Lord, please help me to walk contently with You in your direction and at your pace.

Winter Wonderland!

2011-02-28T21:16:00.008-06:00

We have had a winter here in Kansas that makes me reminiscent of my Minnesota days…lots of snow! I typically am not a fan of snow (mainly driving in it…I've actually realized that I do love snow if I don’t have to go anywhere!). Steve and I were excited to break out the cross country skis my parents gave us for Christmas a few years ago. We went to Shawnee Mission Park (of course) and forged some trails. It was absolutely beautiful. Fresh, fluffy snow and a bright blue sunny sky! It couldn’t have been a more perfect day. Here are some pictures documenting our adventure. This adventure actually happened January 20, and I figured I’d better blog about it soon or winter will just keep hanging on (come on, spring!).

Steve was the super manly one that forged the path. I was so bundled up, it took me awhile to get my camera out to take a picture of him in action…see him way down there?

Enjoying our own seemingly private tour of the park, we made fresh ski tracks, and even came across some deer tracks!

Anyone who knows Steve well knows he is an AMAZING downhill skier. So he humored me and pretended to get into his tuck. Haha. He's a good sport.

Then we found an actual hill! Well, not quite a Black Diamond run, but good enough for me! And Steve was definitely a fan of the “fresh powder”

Here are our tracks!

I was wondering where the ski lift was…

But I made it!

We had so much fun, but after several runs down our hill, we remembered we had to trek all the way back home...

With a few photo ops along the way…

P.S. That little love note in the snow was done by my amazing husband. He's so romantical. I just love him! We had such an incredible afternoon together, and after we got home, we ~~hobbled~~ walked around our apartment complex with Norman, so he could enjoy the nice day, too. Then, being the hip young couple that we are, we settled in for a nice late afternoon watching some Jeopardy. That evening, we got the phone call that (almost) changed our lives forever…

I'm in LOVE, I'm in LOVE, and I don't care who knows it!

2011-02-14T20:51:00.005-06:00

That is one of my favorite lines (from the movie "Elf")...but I'm sure it's no secret who has this girl's heart, even without shouting it from the mountain tops. On this Valentine's Day, I am reminded just how blessed I am to be married to such an amazing man. One who:

Loves God with all his heart, and is opening himself up to what God is doing in ways like never before
Works tirelessly to support our family, and worked so hard to get to the point where he could do so
Has grown into such an incredible leader for our family (even when his wife is not the easiest girl to lead)
Shares my heart for adoption and also the ministry that goes with our journey of open adoption
Has a huge heart for missions and wants to be used by God in ways that previously would have made him uncomfortable
Constantly looks for ways that he can love me better, and has the most gentle servant's heart
Is going to be the most incredible Daddy to some very lucky kids

How lucky am I?! Over the last 6 1/2 years, I have had the privilege of watching God work in Steve's heart, taking him out of what used to be his comfort zone, and transforming an already amazing man into so much more. Walking along side of him on this journey of life causes me to rethink my priorities and strive to "act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with my God" (taken from Micah 6:8).

I cannot wait to see what God does in and through us as we enter this next year together. We both feel like we're just now getting started on the life we want to live, and want to be sure to keep our focus where it belongs...how we can best be used by the One who created us.

Happy Valentine's Day to my loving, amazing, compassionate, talented, handsome, funny, incredible sweetheart!

I am so thankful for you and I love you so much! You are truly the best one.

Fun with Friends in January...

2011-02-09T19:44:00.009-06:00

Yeah, I know…it’s February…which is why I'd better finish this post pronto! We were blessed with TWO visits from friends in January, both of which were fabulous!

Our first visit was from the Calvarese family. Jessica is one of my closest friends from Oklahoma. We met Jessica and her husband Justin in our Newlyweds flock at Henderson Hills Baptist Church back in 2007. My friendship with Jessica flourished over email, actually, as we would encourage each other through tough work days (and then when Jessica was done working, she’d encourage me through tough work days while I could encourage her in her new job as a mommy!). They have two precious boys, Ian and Owen, whom I call my “Oklahoma nephews.” It just melts my heart when I hear Ian call us “Aunt Liesl” and “Uncle Steve.” LOVE, LOVE, LOVE that.

The Calvareses came for New Year’s Eve weekend and we had a blast, despite some very cold temperatures! Since our favorite activities revolve around Shawnee Mission Park, it was a bummer that it was so cold! But Justin, Jessica, Ian, and Owen were troopers and we were able to show them a little bit of the park.

We also went to some fun local places that I hadn’t seen yet, like shopping at The Legends, and lunch at Winsteads, a super cool (and tasty!) local diner. I was so excited to introduce Jessica and Justin to my favorite coffee in the world…Caribou Coffee! They loved it.

(Photo courtesy of Jessica)

We also went swimming at their hotel, and just enjoyed each others’ company! We are so blessed by them!

Here are some more photos courtesy of Jessica...

A couple weeks later, we had a visit from our friends Jen and Jason, as they passed through Kansas City on their way to visit some more friends in Arkansas. Jen is actually one of my sister Christi’s college roommates and Marching Band buddies from the U of MN, and during my sophomore year at the U of MN, we all lived together as my sister finished medical school, Jen went to grad school, and my friend Julie and I were undergrads. So Jen has always been like another big sister to me. When I followed Christi’s footsteps and joined the U of MN Marching Band (I’ve always looked up to her and wanted to do things she did!), Jen was on staff and I can’t even tell you how much that put me at ease during my first weeks at college.

Jen and Jason were married just 5 weeks before Steve and I were, so we have that fun bond as well! Jen and Jason are avid outdoorsmen (outdoorspeople?) and I could not wait to show them “our” park. I knew they were going to love it. Even better, we had gotten some snow right before their arrival, so that added a whole new adventure! Jason especially enjoyed collecting acorns at the park so he can plant his own tree.

We had so much fun hiking and laughing. And, since Jen works at an environmental learning center in Northern Minnesota, their visit was also very educational!

Jason taught us about deer markings on trees...

Jen found a bird nest with a nice little blanket of snow on it...

Jason displayed his love for trees...

And Jen and I met a new friend!

Such a fun day of hiking through a beautiful snow-filled park!

We really enjoyed our time with our friends! Thanks, guys, for coming to see us!

Urgent need for a family for this child!

2011-01-12T11:20:00.000-06:00

This story really spoke to me. As I was reading this boy's story, I immediately thought of how many interests and passions he shares with Steve (I admit, the thought went through my mind of wishing we had an updated home study that would allow us to look into this further...but our home study is for domestic adoption, not international). But I am praying that we can spread this sweet young man's story and find his forever family before he "ages out" of the orphanage system. I'm linking to the post on the Riggs family blog...extremely well written. Let's spread the word and continue to pray for this boy...

Urgent need for a family for this child!

Another fun park adventure!

2010-12-21T21:59:00.011-06:00

I know...more pictures of our favorite park. But seriously, this is our main source of entertainment, and if you lived here (hey, you should move here...we could be neighbors), you'd spend as much time at the park as possible, too! It's incredible. Plus, it is a great way to tire Norman out for the night, so it's a win-win!

Temps were in the mid-40's today, so we took advantage of the warmth (well...that is a relative term) and decided to tackle one of the non-paved paths. The uneven terrain makes it more exciting. We have often seen deer while on these trails, and today was no exception! Look at this guy...he didn't even seem to mind us there while he chomped on something very crunchy.

Then, one of his friends came to join the party!

They blend right into the trees, so it was hard to capture the awesomeness (although I was using my new camera that I got for my birthday - thanks, Mom and Dad Irwin!!). There are lots of great settings on the new camera that I'll need to learn about.

Here are two of my favorite subjects on which to practice my budding photography skills:

It's a good thing we have such a great guard dog. Ok, so anyone that knows Norman knows that was not the most accurate descriptive word for our "scared of the world" dog...but it sounded cool. In this picture, he's actually intrigued by someone that just rode by on a horse.

During this hike, we decided to take a fork in the trail that we hadn't used before. We assumed it was another loop and wanted to check it out...what can I say, we're adventurous. After about 1 1/2 hours, we came upon this:

Oops! Our hiked turned a bit longer than originally anticipated, as we turned around to retrace our steps. But we did manage to make it back before the sun went down, taking only a slight -- ahem -- detour along the way. And the end of our journey, we were rewarded with this gorgeous sunset on the lake.

I love our park.

2010 Irwin Christmas Card Complete!

2010-12-19T22:23:00.003-06:00

Procrastination over...Christmas card complete!

Here's hoping that next year we will have a tiny little face to add to the Irwin family Christmas card!

Most Wonderful Year Christmas 5x7 folded card

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The Great 2010 Irwin Christmas Tree Hunt...

2010-12-04T19:07:00.013-06:00

Today we did something I have never done before. Actually, that’s wrong…my Mom tells me we did it when I was very young, but I don’t remember it…so I’ll say it’s the first time in my memory that I’ve done it. We went to choose and cut our own Christmas tree! We went to a local tree farm that is family owned and operated (the best kind!)

It was a pretty chilly morning, but the sun came out while we were there and warmed us up quite nicely.

Norman was a champ, leading us through the aisles of trees…he seemed to favor the ones that were more suited to his size.

Sorry, buddy, those aren’t for sale yet.

After an exhaustive search…we found a winner!

Isn’t she a beaut?

Norman carefully supervised Steve during the cutting process...

Meanwhile, I thoroughly enjoyed watching Steve be all manly and cut down our handpicked Christmas tree.

Then, it was time to bring it home! What a strong man I have!

We enjoyed delicious hot drinks...

...while the staff shook, wrapped, and loaded our tree for us. What service!

The Great 2010 Irwin Christmas Tree Hunt Extravaganza was a success!

And what a fun day it was!

And here is the finished product. It makes our apartment nice and cozy. Christmastime is here!!

We don’t have a tree topper, so we improvised. I think this little guy is perfect!

Even with all the fun of Christmas decorating, let us not forget the true reason for the season, displayed here by a beautiful wood-carved picture my Grandpa made us a couple years ago. He makes such artistic things. I treasure the handmade creations he gives us.

Luke 2:1-20
About that time Caesar Augustus ordered a census to be taken throughout the Empire. This was the first census when Quirinius was governor of Syria. Everyone had to travel to his own ancestral hometown to be accounted for. So Joseph went from the Galilean town of Nazareth up to Bethlehem in Judah, David's town, for the census. As a descendant of David, he had to go there. He went with Mary, his fiancée, who was pregnant.

While they were there, the time came for her to give birth. She gave birth to a son, her firstborn. She wrapped him in a blanket and laid him in a manger, because there was no room in the hostel

There were sheepherders camping in the neighborhood. They had set night watches over their sheep. Suddenly, God's angel stood among them and God's glory blazed around them. They were terrified. The angel said, "Don't be afraid. I'm here to announce a great and joyful event that is meant for everybody, worldwide: A Savior has just been born in David's town, a Savior who is Messiah and Master. This is what you're to look for: a baby wrapped in a blanket and lying in a manger."

At once the angel was joined by a huge angelic choir singing God's praises:

Glory to God in the heavenly heights,
Peace to all men and women on earth who please him.

As the angel choir withdrew into heaven, the sheepherders talked it over. "Let's get over to Bethlehem as fast as we can and see for ourselves what God has revealed to us." They left, running, and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in the manger. Seeing was believing. They told everyone they met what the angels had said about this child. All who heard the sheepherders were impressed.

Mary kept all these things to herself, holding them dear, deep within herself. The sheepherders returned and let loose, glorifying and praising God for everything they had heard and seen. It turned out exactly the way they'd been told!

November Adventures…

2010-11-27T18:32:00.014-06:00

Whew! What a whirlwind of a month! This is gonna be a long one, I'm warning ya. November 2010 probably ranks up there with one of my favorites of all time, I think. It started with a visit from my sweet cousin Chelsie, who is now 21 and has grown into such an incredible young woman. I just love her. I babysat her when I was a teenager (she was definitely one of my favorite sitting jobs) and I am so thankful that we have stayed close (gotten closer, even!) as we’ve gotten older. What a blessing to have family that you can honestly say are friends, too! While Chelsie was here, we spent some time at the park (of course). We hiked about 5 miles on a beautiful day. Here we are at an overlook at the top of our hike.

Chelsie is tall! Not that it takes much to be taller than me. I think I am the shortest of all of the Larson cousins, even though I am far from the youngest...I say they took all the tall genes, haha. Here are some more pictures of our Shawnee Mission Park excursion.

This picture was taken with my camera lens half closed, but it actually turned out pretty neat!

Don't worry, I have now put a new digital camera on my Amazon Wish List. My 7 year old Kodak Easy Share is no longer cutting it. Hehe.

Chelsie and I also had some tasty cooking adventures (poor Steve missed out since he's on a different meal schedule with his crazy sleep schedule). We made some gluten-free stuffed green peppers, and they were delicious! See?

The best part about Chelsie’s visit was that I didn’t have to say goodbye to her when it was time for her to go home…I just went with her! Chelsie, Norman, and I had a road trip to MN! It was so great to have company for the 7 hour trip up there. We had some great talks, and wonderful laughs. We also decided that we are going to run a half marathon next August. I don’t know, maybe I was delirious from being on the road for so long? But I’m sticking to it…we’re even trying to get some of the other Larson cousins to join us (with limited success so far…hmmmm). The cool thing is that the race route goes through our own hometown, within a block of my parents’ house, and right by Chelsie’s parents’ house (so our family can ~~give us Snickers bars as we pass the 11 mile mark~~ set up a little cheer party there). It should be a great time…anyone want to join us??

Ok, so back to the MN trip. I hadn’t been there in over a year, so I had quite an agenda and still didn’t get to see everyone I wanted to. I was able to get some important visits in, though! On Thursday, I got to see my cousin swim in the section swim meet (go Amy!), after having dinner with my aunt, my brother and his wife, and my dad. Friday, my mom and I had a fun afternoon shopping together, and we were able to meet up with my friend Julie whom I haven’t seen in 3 years (she has had 2 kids since then!). Julie was one of my bridesmaids and is probably one of my ~~oldest~~ longest friends. We were in kindergarten together! I love my friendship with Julie because it’s the type that, no matter how long it’s been, just picks up where we left off. Love that girl!

Friday night, I helped my dad cover their motorhome (with a 30’ x 50’ tarp…in the dark…we made memories…haha). We had to be sure to get it covered because overnight, we were looking to experience the first snowfall of the season in MN! Norman and Rosie (my parents’ 15 year old greyhound/lab mix) loved it!

Norman and Rosie get along so well…though I’m not sure Norman is a huge fan of Rosie sleeping in his bed.

Now I usually am not a fan of driving in snow, but that 8 inches sure wasn’t going to stop me from a breakfast date at the Mall of America with one of my besties, Kazia. She and I go way back…all the way to a junior high slumber party. Kazia is the friend that could talk me into all sorts of ~~crazy~~ adventurous things back in high school, and we have such a history together. We’ve supported each other through so many things over the past 17(!!) years, and I am so thankful for her. Here is the gorgeous Kazia and her yummy Cinnabon treat (did you know they now make “just the middle” as a menu choice? That is, after all, the best part of any Cinnabon). My mouth is watering just uploading this photo…

I was also able to join some of my family for their traditional Sunday lunch at Perkins. They go there every week after church. Here are my cute grandparents. I just love them! Such a great example of an awesome Godly marriage…60 years and going strong!

After lunch, we headed back to “the farm” to see my grandparents’ newly-remodeled bedroom (their kids did a sort of “Extreme Makeover Home Edition” for their anniversary gift) and spend some more time together. See how adorable my grandpa is…doting over his beloved.

Sunday night, I was able to meet another one of my besties for dinner at one of our favorite Mexican restaurants (yay for Margaritas!). My friend Stephanie and I were the 1999-2000 Miss Richfield Ambassador Princesses…whew…10 years ago already! Our year was honestly a bit of a “dud” for the program as we were stuck in the midst of a coordinator switch with little direction (they have since picked back up and are going strong again! Yay!), but I have to say my friendship with Steph is the best thing I could have gotten out of that year. She has become one of my best friends and we, too, have been through a lot together over these 10 years. She has become such a blessing to me and I am honored to call her a friend and sister in Christ.

Monday morning, I had coffee with a friend that I haven’t seen since high school! That’s over 10 years, people! Man, it was great to reconnect with her and hear about what God is doing in her life. Thanks for the great coffee date, Krickey Mae! After she had to leave for work, I stayed at the Mall (yes, I was at the Mall of America again…and I already miss it!) and met my BFF Gretchen and her little boy Aden (who had his 6 month shots that morning…poor thing). Gretch and I had a day full of adventures. Since Aden was in the car sleeping and we needed some more drive time, I hopped in and we made the trip to White Castle…YUM!

Oh my goodness, their sliders are incredible. And they’ve also started making sweet potato fries, which of course we had to try! After our tummies were pleasantly full, we headed to the Minnesota Zoo. It was chilly, but that wasn’t going to stop us from seeing the bears, beavers, wolves, and other animals on the trail. We also got to see the brand new baby dolphin! It was fun to be there pushing a stroller…can’t wait until it’s my kiddo in that stroller, though! When it was close to the zoo’s closing time, we headed back to the Mall (we had to, I promise…my car was still there) and got a little crazy. Gretchen’s hubby Ryan met us there (to be on baby patrol), so Gretch and I were able to go on a couple rides (pictures to come…they are on her camera) and we also got to try out the new Xbox Kinect as we danced the night away in front of a ~~stunned~~ captive audience. After Ryan was ~~too embarrassed to be seen with us anymore~~ needing to get home because he was tired after a long day at work, Gretchen and I wrapped up our day with some gelato and, of course, shopping. I couldn’t resist a couple cute outfits for the future baby Irwin (it’s hard to shop for a baby when you don’t know gender OR time of year he/she will be born…just sayin’). It was a great way to spend my last full day in MN.

After a morning walk with my parents and Rosie, and then breakfast with one of my theater buddies, Meredyth, we (Norman and I) hit the open road back to Kansas. We made it home just in time to see Steve before he headed off to dreamland. While we were gone, Steve had put up lots of fun pictures and did a lot around our apartment to make it more homey. I loved seeing what he’d been working so hard on all week! It was a quick turnaround, as I got home Tuesday night, and we left again Thursday morning…this time for our Waiting Families Workshop at CPO in Tulsa, OK. What a great weekend! We were hosted by the most amazing family. They actually haven’t adopted through CPO (they have 5 biological children, though), but they wanted to be a part of the ministry and have opened their home to families that come in from out of town. They even let us bring Norman! Their kids were so sweet and so respectful. And they LOVED Norman. Their middle boy Luke (who's 5) especially took a liking to him. We woke up Friday morning and as we were getting ready, we saw little fingers come under the door, passing along a doggie treat (which Norman was happy to eat). He also drew a few pictures for Norman and made the cutest little gift…a dog treat with a face drawn on it, gift-wrapped in a paper towel decorated with marker. Precious. These kids were so well behaved! They were very much kids and had tons of energy, but they were also such ladies and gentlemen. No arguments when their parents told them it was time to get PJs on, and sweet Luke even took Steve’s bowl for him after dinner! What a great host! We just latched on to everything we could while watching this family. I’m so glad God blessed us with new friends. Thank you, Wyatts, for opening your home to us for the weekend!

Our workshop was great. We were able to meet 16 other couples that are in the adoption process (actually, two already had their kiddos). It was so cool to listen to the different stories of how God brought each couple to CPO. Many already had children, and a few did not. Some had already been matched with birth moms, and most had not. There was even a couple that met with a birth mom while we were there that weekend! It just makes it so much more real and exciting that it could be us soon (we hope!). We were also so blessed to finally meet the director of CPO in person. What an incredible woman. She is such a servant and Christ’s love just radiates from her. She is funny, blunt, feisty, genuine, and such a Godly woman. After our workshop, we were even more excited to be a part of the ministry. I sure wish we lived closer so we could be even more involved. The workshop covered basically everything it could, from adopting a baby in the NICU, to trans-racial adoptions, to relationships with birth moms. They even brought in the attorney that we’ll use (for both birth parents’ termination of rights, as well as adoption finalization) and she has such a heart for these girls. They also brought in the doctor that takes care of the girls during their pregnancy (an awesome Christian guy who also has a clear love for this ministry) and the therapist (loved her!). We heard from several birth moms, adoptive families, and even some adults that were adopted (as infants) through CPO. Such a neat thing to hear all of the different perspectives. These birth moms are amazing to choose life for their babies, especially in a society when an unplanned pregnancy is often seen as an inconvenience that can be easily terminated. They are truly heroes, no matter what their story is. As the director says, “I couldn’t even give someone a kitten, much less a child,” so what these girls are doing is the most self-less thing, carrying a baby to term, knowing she is going to be placing that baby in someone else’s arms in order for that child to have a life that she isn’t able to provide right now. Just awe-inspiring.

Wow, so that’s our November so far. Super busy, and 100% wonderful. Things should slow down for a bit now…the next adventure up is the great 2010 Irwin Christmas Tree hunt. Stay tuned!

Christmastime is Here...

2010-11-24T22:23:00.006-06:00

When Steve and I embarked on our adoption journey, we created a Life Book that can be shown to prospective birthmoms (I like to call it our “pick us” book!) which gives these special women a glimpse into our lives and who we are. One of the requirements of our agency was that it needed to be done using Shutterfly. It's a great way to produce multiple copies quickly as needed (or in case one gets lost) and it offers a final product that can withstand little fingerprints (many birthmoms are already parenting little ones that may enjoy perusing the books as well!), and hold up to many years of browsing through the pages, as the books become somewhat of a keepsake for these birthmoms (we'll also have a copy made for our baby, so they can see what their birthmom was looking at when she chose us for her precious babe). I have to say I thoroughly enjoyed my first experience using Shutterfly, and I can’t wait to make many more digital scrapbooks (it’s addictive!). Another cool thing Shutterfly offers is photo cards. One of my favorite parts of the holiday season is receiving photos and letter updates from those I love. I've always wanted to do a cool holiday photo card, and this is such an easy way to make the perfect one! My goodness, Shutterfly will even stamp and mail the cards for you if you want! Does it get any easier? They have a wide variety of designs, which allows lots of creativity without all the work! Here are a couple of my favorites…I’m still deciding on which to use for our very first photo Christmas card…

Here are some of the cool ways to use Shutterfly this holiday season, from fun cards to personalized gifts…

Holiday Cards: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/holiday-cards – I can’t wait until it’s our turn to have the token “holiday card with the kiddos in all their cuteness,” but I also happen to have a pretty amazingly dashing husband and adorable dog, so what’s to say we can’t have a holiday card with us in all our cuteness, right? Who knows…maybe this will be the last year before we get to add an adorable mini-face to the mix!

Gift Tags: http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/christmas-gift-tags – And how cute are these? Definitely better than the whole “cut some extra wrapping paper and fold it in half to use as a makeshift gift tag because I forgot to buy some” concept that typically happens in my house.

Calendars: http://www.shutterfly.com/calendars – Anyone that knows me knows I LOVE calendars. I often have at least 3 going at one time (it really is a sickness…but I think it’s actually hereditary, as my sweet grandma shares the same passion). With Shutterfly, you can personalize calendars for yourself, or make a fun gift for your loved ones that truly lasts all year long!

How would you like 50 free holiday cards from Shutterfly? Click here to find out how (http://blog.shutterfly.com/5358/holiday2010-blog-submission-form)...

Fun at the Farmer's Market...and Ethiopian Food!

2010-11-05T22:32:00.006-05:00

Steve and I went to the huge farmer's market located near downtown Kansas City and had such a fun time! It felt great looking at all the fresh produce and being able to support the (mostly) local vendors. And check out this amazing loot we picked up...all for only $4.00 total!

The best part? It's a year-round farmer's market! We also had the opportunity to eat at an Ethiopian restaurant. I have been wanting to try Ethiopian food for a long time, and Steve was brave enough to venture out of our "meat and potatoes" norm to try it with me.

It was SO good!

And so filling...we shared an entree and still couldn't finish [Steve thought it was gross that I was taking pictures of our finished product for my blog]. But can you tell we liked it? The butternut squash soup was incredible. I can't wait to go back. We're having such awesome adventures so far. I love our new life!

What?! A Free Missions Trip????

2010-10-27T20:33:00.004-05:00

As you know, Steve and I are passionate about adoption. We hope to adopt more than once, both domestically (as we are doing now) and internationally. One of my favorite things to do is follow others' stories as they walk through the exciting, scary, emotional, heart-wrenching, amazing journey called adoption. One family has taken things even further. They are giving away a Missions Trip to Ethiopia (which I hope to win!) while raising money for some incredible causes.

Check out their blog for details...but hurry! It ends tomorrow (October 28). What an amazing opportunity!

What a beautiful place to live!

2010-10-23T21:14:00.014-05:00

So when Steve was looking into places for us to live here in Kansas, he started out looking at various rental houses. We really wanted to have a fenced yard for Norman to play in (ok, so part of it was that we missed the luxury of our yard at our previous home and were thinking ahead to the winter and being able to just open the door for Norman to go out and go potty). Of course, as we are on a pretty tight budget now, the houses we could afford were not necessarily in the best neighborhoods, so we went back to apartment hunting. Steve called me while I was in NY and said “I think I found a place for us to live.” Well…this place was definitely a God-thing. Here’s why:

1) It is right by this amazing park (that’s what drew Steve to it in the first place) which is our main source of entertainment right now! Oh, and the park has a huge outdoor theatre which I cannot wait to (hopefully) be involved with next summer! More on the park in a bit…
2) When we wanted to get some pics of the actual apartment we were wanting to rent, Steve asked the Admin. Asst. at his company if someone there would mind going and taking some pictures for us (we didn’t want to put a deposit down without seeing it, but we also didn’t want to lose the apartment either)…turns out one of Steve’s co-workers lives not only in the complex, not only in our building, not only on our floor, but RIGHT ACROSS THE BREEZEWAY from our apartment. He went and took tons of pics for us (such a huge blessing!) and we felt so much more at peace about everything. And the other perk about having them as neighbors is that I was able to watch their super sweet 17-month-old son when he was sick and the guys needed to attend a training meeting at work. I have always wanted to have the free time to be able to bless someone like that (and actually I got the blessing, because I got to snuggle with a sweet little boy for 3 hours while he slept and cuddled on my lap).
3) My dad’s cousin’s wife found out we were moving to this area, she said “I wish I would have known…I lived in Kansas for awhile and was in THE BEST apartment complex. I would have told them where to live!” Well, guess what?! We’re in that complex! And she’s right…it is an awesome place to live.

Since we are on our tight budget due to my not working (BTW, right now…LOVING the trade off. May have to remedy the "not working" situation in the future, but for now, I’m very much enjoying some time being a stay-at-home-wife!), anyhow...we are trying to find lots of cheap (read: free) things to do for fun! We happen to be very close to the best park I’ve ever seen. Shawnee Mission Park has just about everything. We have been there at least 3-4 times a week since we moved here. They have miles and miles of paths and off-path trails. Beautiful trees, a huge lake with a marina and canoe/kayak rentals, an off –leash dog park with a beach (though the dog park area is not fenced in, so it will not be an off-leash park for Norman), horseback riding trails, and even a hot air balloon launch area (which is good, because I was wondering where in the world I was going to launch my hot air balloon from around here! haha). Here are some pictures from one of our recent visits to the park.

Such a regal beagle we have! And no, that is not a muzzle (people always ask that).

We saw some pretty fall colors...the leaves were just starting to change.

Norman and I also did some exploring by the lake...

There are seriously miles and miles of paths like this...AMAZING!

And *this* is my heart all in one photo frame...

Isn't that just beautiful? We feel so blessed to have it close-by! When I go up to MN for a visit next month, I'm going to bring back our cross-country skis...won't that be so much fun this winter?! I also cannot wait until we are pushing a stroller...that will be even better! Anyone that comes here for a visit will definitely be introduced to our park!

Where to start??

2010-10-19T22:16:00.013-05:00

Whew, what a month! Our lives have been completely turned around (for the better) and we are loving it! Steve ended up with TWO job offers, but ultimately, the Kansas City job was a much better fit. He loved the Huntsville area, and it was a strong company, but he opted for the position that would give him experience better suited for a possible future (down the road, God-willing) with the National Weather Service as a forecaster, rather than digging further and further into the research and computer side of Meteorology. And my goodness, did he make the right choice! He is learning so much and getting some pretty incredible training with some amazing people. There are so many positives about this move that I can hardly even list them. We are much closer to my family (it cut the distance basically in half), I am not working full-time anymore (PRAISE GOD!), God provided an awesome apartment that is within walking distance to the most beautiful park (seriously…miles and miles of trails for walking/running/biking/horseback riding. It even has a Hot Air Balloon launch field! What?!), I am not working, Steve loves his job and is being challenged, Norman is much more comfortable in our new apartment, and did I mention…I’m not working?! I am just feeling so blessed by this new life…I feel like after 5 years of marriage (we just celebrated our 5th Anniversary October 8th) we are just getting started on the life of which we have dreamed. And it affirms that our decision to send Steve back to school for this second bachelor’s degree was the right one. God has provided confirmation after confirmation for us, and how cool is that? So anyways…about our new life…

Steve got the job offer(s) while I was in New York last month, so we had to basically consult via phone regarding this decision that would affect our lives in a pretty huge way. The positive side of that…although I was more than happy to leave many parts of my job, I was also very reluctant to leave it (I worked at the most amazing company, with the most amazing people, making a very decent salary with amazing benefits and perks)…so being in New York helped me escape the reality of “oh my goodness, I need to turn in a 2 week notice!” Yes, you read that right…Steve’s new company wanted him to start October 1st (we were able to push them out to the 4th). Not much time to wrap things up in OKC, that’s for sure! But we knew it would happen quickly when it happened, and certainly weren’t complaining about things, because STEVE HAD A JOB!! My trip to New York ended up being a pretty awesome “last hurrah” for my life as a career woman, because I got to fly out on the jet!

We were riding in style!

This is my sweet co-worker. I miss seeing her every day...she is such a wise woman of God!

Needless to say, commercial air travel will never be the same for me again. Haha!

Here is another awesome thing we saw in NY. God’s creation is breathtaking!

Our last two weeks in Oklahoma were quite a whirlwind. It happened to include the only two weekends that we actually had made plans (go figure). Steve’s folks arrived in OK the day I returned from NY, as we had been planning to go to the OU vs. Air Force game that weekend (Steve’s dad is an Air Force Academy graduate) and they ended up being a tremendous help. Steve’s mom is probably the best packer I know. She was a life saver in helping me get the kitchen, pantry, knick knacks, and many other things wrapped securely and packed (did I mention she is FAST?!). We could not have done this move without them. For reals. They were with us through the weekend and then went back to CA knowing that in just about 9 days, they’d be back. That is the best way to say goodbye…knowing they will be back soon! Then, the following weekend, we had already planned a Kansas City weekend with some members of my family. It is a great “halfway point” between MN and OKC, so many Kansas City weekends happened with various family and friends during our 4 years in Oklahoma. Even though the timing was a bit crazy, I knew I’d probably actually need a weekend of just relaxing, playing some cards, watching football, and laughing with my people, so we kept it on. And I am so glad we did. We were also able to take a car load of stuff up to our new apartment! Nice! Thanks, Dad, for helping us unload that first car load!

When we returned to Oklahoma City that Monday, the rest of the week is seriously a blur. I was blessed to have great groups of friends in Oklahoma and I was trying to cram as much time in with them as I could…and it still just wasn’t enough. I sure miss them! Another plus of being in Kansas City…it’s not far to go back to OK for a visit either! I worked the rest of the week (my final week at Chesapeake…bittersweet), and Steve’s folks came out again for the remainder of the packing/loading/moving extravaganza. We filled a 26-foot truck, people! How in the world can a couple that has been married only 5 years fill a 26-foot truck, plus three (actually, four, including our pre-move trip) carloads of stuff?! Phew! Which explains my new part-time job, for the time being. SELL STUFF! I am having a blast just being able to “nest” in our new home, and simplify our lives by selling/donating things. It is just an awesome feeling.

Steve’s parents were again instrumental in the tail-end of the move as well. Have I mentioned that our new apartment is on the 3rd floor?? God bless the guys as they made numerous trips up those stairs with very heavy things. Steve’s mom was also extremely helpful in keeping Norman safe and happy. The poor pair was holed up in one of the bedrooms for much of two days. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Mommers Irwin! I wanted to start the unpacking/nesting later that week (after the folks left), so on Monday, instead of unpacking, I decided to introduce my MIL to one of my absolute favorite parts of the Kansas City area…Country Club Plaza! We had such a fun day together, shopping, eating, lots of walking, and just enjoying each other’s company. I am so blessed to have ILs that I absolutely love.

Now that we have been here for a couple weeks, we are adjusting quite well. I am, of course, loving staying at home and getting our apartment in order, and Steve is doing great at his new job. His first two weeks consisted of training on the day shift before he switched over (this week) to his normal shift…1:00 am to 9:30 am. Crazy, huh? We got some killer blackout curtains (two layers, actually), and Steve even came up with the idea of using Velcro to attach them to the wall so that no light can leak through. It’s a pretty cool system, if I do say so myself (sorry, honey, for giving you a hard time about it pre-installation...you were right)! It’s pretty neat to have Steve come home around 10:00 am and have the day together (well, until he has to start getting ready for bed at around 4:00 pm). On Monday, we went to the park right after he got home and enjoyed a 3 mile walk! I love having him home during the day.

Today, we had our Home Study Update visit with a new Social Worker (our current adoption Home Study was done in Oklahoma, and we need to have it updated now that our living/job situation has changed…it now needs to be done by someone licensed in Kansas, hence today’s visit with a new Social Worker). We are now in the paper chase (abbreviated version) again as we wait for the Kansas Background Checks to clear and our new home study to be written up and sent to the agency. We are still able to use the same adoption agency, and we are so glad to be able to continue the process with them. We are sort of “on hold” while we wait for our home study to be updated, etc. (they can’t show our profile to birthmoms that are due anytime soon, just in case our home study update isn’t completed in time)…hopefully not for too long, though! And even though it stinks to have this delay, we knew from the beginning that this was likely, and I feel such a peace about where we are now. One thing we know for sure is that God is in complete control of the process, so it’s not like we are going to miss the child He has for us, ya know? Plus, it’s nice to not be “up in the air” anymore. We are here for awhile (at least) and can make our home here with confidence until God leads us somewhere else. And the bottom line is, each day we are closer to meeting our baby, and I could not be more excited for that!

Wow…this post has gotten long, but there have been so many things to update you all on! Let me know if you want our new contact info (I can send it via email). In the meantime, I have no excuses on not keeping up with the blog…especially since I have lots of quiet time in the evening now while Steve sleeps! I also have learned the art of quicker photo downloads (a perk of all my selling on Cra*gs L*st!) so I can include fun pictures of our new adventures. Quick prayer requests before I sign off:

*That I find a part-time (very part-time, preferably) job to supplement our income. Would love to either work from home or find a coffee-shop job or something like that
*That we can get plugged into a great church. We really miss our church in Edmond and are praying for God to lead us to a place where we can build some great relationships (since we have no family here…our church family will be our family)
*That our adoption process will continue to move forward as quickly as possible, but mostly for peace and patience during the dreaded wait
*That Steve will continue to adapt to his new schedule. God has really been providing in that area, and we pray that He will continue to do so

Thank you so much to everyone that has prayed for us, offered words of encouragement, and just been excited with us as we begin this next chapter in our lives! We are so blessed by each one of you!

But my life isn't interesting enough to blog...

2010-09-12T20:45:00.014-05:00

Ha. I say that all the time. But then all of a sudden there are a bajillion updates. We definitely have had some great opportunities to trust God with things in our life that are a pretty big deal. You know, the usual...babies, jobs, moving. God is proving again and again that He is faithful (and also being patient enough with me to offer glimpses of encouragement even when I like to throw my tantrums about wanting things NOW). More in-depth updates to come, but here are a few tidbits, so you know what is on our prayer list and what we would be so blessed to add to yours (and we also want to know how we can pray for you!). Things got pretty crazy a couple months ago when this little guy started to have seizures.

I know he's "just" a dog, but for now, he is our baby, and seizures are never fun to witness. We made many trips to the vet (they love him there...and we love them) and our Norman is now on meds every 12 hours (sorta kills the social life, having to be home at 9 am and 9 pm every day...hehe). He is improving, though, and we are so thankful. More than 4 weeks seizure-free now, praise God!

We have also been enjoying the start of football season (Steve has even entered his first Fantasy Football league!), but can hardly believe Fall is here already. I do love Fall (except that it leads to Winter...boo). Tomorrow I get to jump headfirst into Fall as I travel to upstate New York for work. Business travel is one way to make a week fly! I think we might even get to see Niagara Falls...if so, I will definitely take pictures! The other fun thing about this trip is that I get to fly on the corporate jet. Rumor has it that they even stock the seats with candy! Looking forward to seeing if that is indeed true...

No new news on the adoption front. Thanks so much to everyone that has supported us with encouraging words, surprise notes, prayers, and even buying coffee! We are officially "waiting"...and I'm not gonna lie...this whole "waiting" thing is turning out to be a bit overrated (hehe). Many prayers for patience are coming out of this heart. I have still struggled a bit with hearing that everyone (seriously...ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a tiny bit, but not by much) is pregnant. And it's not even that I want to be pregnant (it would actually put our adoption on hold), but man, I just long for that baby NOW and it's so hard to wait and trust God's timing in all this, especially since adoption is such an unknown timeline. I have to be honest in saying that the idea that we could be waiting years definitely frightens me and discourages me a little. Comparison is never a good thing. My aunt put it very well when she said "I refuse to look to the right or to the left, or to compare myself with those who are more or less successful than I am. Those comparisons bear rotten fruit: either pride or despair." So true, and I'm so guilty of it. Constantly looking at one of the 5 (yes FIVE) people on my floor at work that are "drinking the water" and wonder why am I the only one that can't do this? Like I'm a total failure because I haven't been able to get pregnant in 2 1/2 years. Yet I am so passionate about the path God has opened for us in adoption...I just want it to move much faster. I strive to be at peace with my "now" so that I don't settle even for good, when God wants to offer me His best. When looked at that way, who could even argue that this wait - long or short - isn't worth waiting for? I want to take every thought captive (especially those that Satan throws in there that say "you know this isn't going to happen for you" or "you aren't a mother; therefore, you just don't fit"...those have been hammered at me a lot lately) and replace it with God's truth, like Jeremiah 29:11's "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I cannot wait for that day, but I also must rejoice in the journey. Whew...better save more of that for another post. This "quick update" could get long.

The other big excitement is Steve's job search. After graduation in May, things were pretty slow on the career front. But within the last month or two, things have started rolling. We were blessed with several phone interviews and Steve had two in-person interviews last week! One in Huntsville, AL, and one in Shawnee, KS. Both went extremely well (the one in Huntsville is already drafting an offer!), and we are hoping to have a big announcement within the next week...stay tuned!

So yeah, big changes on the horizon I think. And many things on the prayer list. Praying for our adoption process to continue to move forward, but most importantly for peace during the agonizing wait. Praying for Steve's job situation and discernment in that process. Praying for our potential move, and the logistics that go along with that (including my job situation following said potential move). God has proven his faithfulness over and over, and we are so excited to see where He leads us next!

BIG NEWS!!

2010-07-05T18:35:00.004-05:00

We are so excited to (finally) officially announce…

WE ARE ADOPTING!!!

God has been stirring our hearts for quite some time, and we have taken the exciting step toward becoming parents through the blessing of adoption! I can’t even explain how ecstatic we are about this journey. For many months (years, actually), we have longed for a child, and we are thrilled to be moving forward! We found an incredible agency, Crisis Pregnancy Outreach in Tulsa, OK, and strongly believe in their mission. One thing that really stands out to us is their mission of not providing babies for families, but instead, they provide families for babies. As a crisis pregnancy center, their main focus is to minister to birthparents that are making an incredible decision to choose life. They support birthmoms that choose adoption, but also those that choose to parent their babies themselves. Steve and I have become huge advocates of the open adoption process as we’ve prayed about our own journey, and are excited to (hopefully) be able to minister to a young lady that will ultimately become a part of our family, in whatever capacity that may end up being (this could be pictures and letters, or it could be frequent contact through visits. We’re excited about the potential!).

The process of adoption is bittersweet, and we pray every day for the birthparents of our future child. The decision she will be (or, possibly is currently) making will be one of the most difficult, grief-filled decisions she will ever have to make. And it will lead to the happiest moment of our lives, as the baby we have prayed for and longed for is placed into our arms. One incredible moment, two extremely different perspectives - one huge contradiction. For this reason, we would love for you to join us in praying for this process and everyone involved. We pray that God places a shield of protection over the birthparents and this precious baby; that He gives a peace that passes all understanding; and that above all, God is glorified through our lives and this entire process. It is such an amazing thing to be a part of.

So…you may be asking…what’s next? Well, we are definitely on our way with what is affectionately called “the paper chase.” It’s incredible what is required in order to complete a home study, but for my type-A, list-making personality…I thrive on the chase! And there is certainly nothing I’ve been more excited about, which makes the fingerprinting, background checking, and document chasing worth every second. We have our home study interview with the social worker scheduled for Tuesday, July 13th. We’ve already sent our “life book” to the agency, and our adoption mentor said they’d start showing it to potential birthmoms as soon as they receive it. Since we will be hand-picked by the birthparents, there is no telling how long the process will ultimately take…it could be a few months, or it could be a few years. We are completely at peace knowing that God’s timing is absolutely perfect and that His hand has been guiding us this entire time. Hopefully that peace will continue as we complete the home study and start the “hurry up and wait” part of the process!

One of the cool tools we have found in order to raise funds for our adoption and the related expenses is this website: http://www.justlovecoffee.com/Irwin2010Adoption.

As a coffee lover, this is right up my alley! Just Love Coffee is company that sells 100% Fair Trade specialty coffees produced from the places that do coffee best. According to their website, Just Love Coffee selects “only Fair Trade coffees from small farmers so that we are helping those farmers, who labor to bring us such wonderful coffees, earn a living wage. We roast our coffees to order so that you are receiving the freshest coffee possible every time.” Yum! Sounds delicious, doesn’t it? If you order using our family’s link provided above, a portion of the sales will benefit our adoption and help defray some of the costs related to the process. Our site is being set up as we speak, so it should be up and running soon! Check back often, and place your order for some tasty coffee once our site is active! We’d love your support in this endeavor, but mostly we covet your prayers. Prayers for us as God prepares us for parenthood, prayers for the birthparents as they go through this decision and their pregnancy, and prayers for Crisis Pregnancy Outreach as they continue their awesome ministry to these girls.

Thanks so much for your support, your excitement, and walking through these past couple years in our journey toward parenthood which has certainly not been the one we had envisioned (but we trust God that it is so much better than our plans were)!

Where have we been????

2010-06-05T15:49:00.035-05:00

Wow...it has once again been awhile. I am such a blog slacker. It's been quite a busy few months here in the Irwin house. Back in March, our house sold (Praise God!) and we moved into an apartment (much to Norman's chagrin). Before our house sold, our realtor brought in a stager and our house looked like it belonged on HGTV! The ironic thing is that the guy who ended up buying our house saw the house the day *before* the stager came. So the whole staging deal was all for naught. Oh well, at least Steve and I got to enjoy a beautiful house before we closed! I have to admit, Steve and I were less than on-board when the realtor was insistent on a stager, but my goodness, look at the amazing work she did!

Here is the Master Bedroom (interesting choice to angle the bed):

Our Master Bathroom:

This picture cracks me up because our realtor brought in towels with the monogram "M" which reflects neither our name nor hers - they must have been on clearance...haha.

Living Room (I love, love, love the huge metal artwork she brought in for that wall!):

A view of our living and dining areas:

Another shot of the living room:

She purchased beautiful art for above our fireplace:

I also love what she did with the dining room, especially the big bowl of fake green apples:

We miss our house - A LOT - but are so, so, so thankful that we are now "unattached" and mobile if we need to move once Steve gets a job. God orchestrated the sale of our house just perfectly. We closed on the sale April 2nd, and in early May, there was a tornado that went through our old neighborhood and damaged several of the homes (including ours). We feel awful for the new homeowner, but have to admit we were so relieved that God sold the house before that happened. I can't imagine dealing with house repairs on top of trying to sell it, while preparing for Steve's graduation...all at once. Whew!

Speaking of Steve's graduation...that was actually just one of TWO big events in our family this spring. On April 24th, three weeks before the much-anticipated graduation event, my sister Christi married the love of her life and became Mrs. Matt Kunzweiler (is that not a super fun new last name?!). I had the huge privilege of being her Matron of Honor and I had the best time with her as we prepared for the big day. The wedding was in South Carolina and I was able to head out there a few days early. We had so much fun, and I once-again realized how blessed I am to have a big sister that I also call one of my best friends. Here are some pictures from the fabulous weekend!

The Wedding Party:

We took the pre-ceremony pictures at the home of Christi and Matt's good friends Mike and Colleen. They have a beautiful house and worked so hard to spruce things up for this occasion, affectionately referring to it as "Operation Biltmore" (after the famous Biltmore Estate in North Carolina).

Here is my new brother-in-law! This is such a great picture of him. We are so happy to have him in our family!

Here are my sweet parents. They're pretty stoked about this union as well! :) I miss you, Mom and Dad!

For the rehearsal, we made Christi a bow bouquet that was, in my completely unbiased opinion, one of the best ever made. :)

And here is the beautiful bride. Goin' to the chapel and we're gonna get married!

One of the reasons I love this picture (besides the obvious joy in Christi's face and her trademark Diet Coke in hand...hehe) is that we have the exact same shot from my wedding day. Not that Christi and I look alike or anything...haha...yes, we are definitely sisters!

After all of the partying, one of the flower girls spent some time "coloring"...didn't make it very far with the coloring. Adorable! I want a little girl just like her. She has the perfect mix of sweet and feisty!

Next was the big event we have been anxiously awaiting for almost four years...STEVE'S GRADUATION! On May 14th, Steve graduated with Special Distinction (yes, my husband is not only the sweetest, most gorgeous man on the planet, he's also a genius...sorry, ladies, he's taken!) from the University of Oklahoma School of Meteorology. I couldn't be more proud.

This is Steve and Dr. Carr, the Director of the School of Meteorology. He was probably Steve's best teacher (he taught two of Steve's dynamics classes) and has a super fun accent (he's from the East Coast). Around our house, he is affectionately known as "Dr. Cah"

The happy couple! Maybe ecstatic is a better word. It's been a LONG four years...we are so grateful to have gotten to this point (seriously only by God's grace). The weather forced an indoor graduation ceremony, but nothing was getting in the way of our happiness!

We were so blessed to have our families come from both Minnesota and California to attend the festivities. They have been such a strong support system for us, and we are so thankful for them!

My sister-in-law Dawn and me:

My mother-in-law and I have a great relationship...we wholeheartedly support one another's chocolate habit.

So...busy few months, huh?? On top of all that, I also have been involved in a musical theater production of "Annie!" This is the first show I have done since Fall 2008, and I am having such a fabulous time! We have already completed two weekends of performances and have one weekend left (June 18th and 19th). If you are in the OKC area, you should come! The Jewel Box Theatre has re-opened their outdoor amphitheatre for the first time in a decade! Also, our little Annie is INCREDIBLE. Here's proof...a video taken by a local news station at one of our rehearsals.

Here is a picture of our star. I'll try to get more pics of the show with some more of my castmates and post them soon!

Whew! Now that I have typed this out, my lack of blogging makes more sense :) Things are slowing down a bit, though, and I will be more on top of it. And...stay tuned for a very exciting announcement coming soon!! I know...the suspense tactic...hope it works! I promise I won't keep you waiting long.

Giveaway!

2010-04-07T20:44:00.004-05:00

My sister-in-law Dawn started a blog to chronicle her new adventures in quilting (and she has become quite good at the whole quilting thing, if I do say so myself!). She recently posted a giveaway on her blog for a Stainless Steel Cuisinart Mini-Prep Food Processor! Check it out and enter! I love giveaways!

Oh, and while you're at it, check out some of the amazing quilt work she has done, too! She is so talented!!

Thoughts...

2010-02-14T18:51:00.004-06:00

"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
- C.S. Lewis

I came across this quote and realized that it pretty much nails it on the head for me right now. There are times when I see what God is doing and has done in my life over the past 4 years and know that I have been deep in the Refiner's fire. What a great place to be, right? That is truly my ultimate goal...to be refined by Him so that He can use me in ways I can't even imagine. But oh, those tiny little things that get in the way called circumstances...I have such a hard time getting myself to see past those and grasp the bigger picture.

I'll be completely honest...this time in Oklahoma (which has also coincided with almost my entire marriage) has been probably the loneliest of my life so far. It's definitely not due to the marriage part, because I have the best, most supportive, most encouraging, most challenging husband who is pushing me to be a better person than I am - yet loves me for who I am right now. I have always found my value in the number of friends I have, or how busy I can be, or how productive I am. If I started feeling icky about something, I would just run and change my situation. I had so many adventures prior to being married, including many theater experiences, moving out to California for 15 months, a few different jobs. And I also have been so blessed with an amazing family. So we move to Oklahoma and the excitement is there...we are going to try something new, start this brand new life together, change the world...you know the drill. I think we both took for granted that we'd jump right into a church, immediately find our "family" there, and have tons of friends and lots of fun. It really hasn't happened that way. I have a few token girlfriends (that have been such a blessing) and Steve has his acquaintances at school (to whom he's more like the "old guy"...at the ripe old age of 28...haha), but in terms of our life here thus far, it's been more of a "it's just you and me, kid" sort of existence. I don't think it's because people here don't care, I think it's that God had some work to do in both of us, and I know that this experience has been used to refine me, my character, and my walk with Him. Only I kinda don't feel like we're on the best of terms, God and me. I have always "felt" good, with so many people around me, loving me, and making me feel valued, that I don't know if I ever learned how to find my value in God alone. There have been moments where I have felt an overwhelming peace and knew that it was His protection around me, but lately, I think I have been seeing a whole lot of "I can see God's love for so-and-so, but I'm not so much feelin' it here." Again, with the circumstances. I see things that I am wishing for, praying for, longing for, happening to "everyone else" and wonder when it will be my turn. My focus has been so off.

Our pastor said something today that struck me. And it's actually something that I've heard before, but I think I really need to dig in and do my homework on this. He said something to the effect of (my own paraphrase) "We may be in the middle of a huge storm in our lives, and when we are in it, it's hard to see the end of it. We have to believe and trust in who God says He is, and in that, we can know that He will bring us through that storm. Or at least provide lulls in the storm so that we can have rest." Or something. I am so not wording it as well as he put it. Anyway, what I got out of it is that I need to focus on the attributes of God - who He is - and that is where I can find my peace, my contentment, and my value. My mother-in-law gave us a couple books by A.W. Tozer that describe the Attributes of God and I think I need to really hit those hard and use this time of "lonely" to grasp the reality of who God is. I have so many truths in my head and I really do believe those. But so much of human nature is feeling, and I'll admit that my feeling of being "left out" of the cool blessings I'm seeing happen to those around me is probably based on the fact that my circumstances have always been changeable to me. I only had to rely on myself (and then thank God for how great I felt because He did such great things in my world). Steve has been telling me a lot lately that I need to stop relying on myself (I'm always saying things like "I'm not the only woman in the world who has the pressure of supporting her family right now, so I just need to suck it up" or "I just need to learn how to be happy in this" or "I...." or "I...." - you get the picture). If I'm being totally honest with myself (or Steve, or God, which I finally have been lately and it's helped to verbalize this), I think that deep down, I don't want to rely on God to help me get through each crappy day at work, or lonely day at home, because I'm really not so happy with what He's done so far (so why would I want Him to be in charge of the rest?). I know...how awful is that? And I knew it was awful, so I tried to fool myself into thinking I didn't really feel that way because it's not a good way to be and I "shouldn't" feel that way. But was I really fooling anyone? And even more-so, was I fooling God, who created me, knows my innermost being, and my thoughts before they are even thought? Yeah, probably not. So now, I really need to pray for God to do a complete change in me. I certainly can't do it on my own. I don't like my life right now. So in order to find contentment in where God has put me at this very moment for such a time as this, I need His help. I'm not quite sure how to do that, exactly, but I know that I serve a God that wants nothing more than to draw me into His presence, and that's all I need to know...

Wait

2010-01-04T14:44:00.002-06:00

Wait

By Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

Patience...

2009-11-17T21:03:00.007-06:00

This is one of those "just things that are on my heart" blog entries. Cuz that is part of what a blog is for, right?

It's no secret that Steve and I are SO SO SO excited to be parents. Our original plan (more for practical purposes) was to wait until Steve graduates and then start our family. Then...surprise! We got pregnant in April 2008. Man, we were so happy and excited about that. I have wanted to be a mom since I was, well, probably 3 :) Then...miscarriage. Unexpected. Awful. Devastating. Wouldn't wish it on anyone. But still, we had hope. We got pregnant "on accident" the first time, so we'll just wait the prescribed time and start trying again, right? No problem. Well, turns out God is working on us in the meantime and here we are...November 2009, and still no baby, no pregnancy, nothing. I'm not going to lie when I say it is starting to ache as I find out every week that another person (or 2 or 3) is pregnant. Such happy news. Getting so hard to hear. Frustrated with myself for feeling less than ecstatic with each additional one. Wishing I could get that "head over heels excited" feeling back.

On the other hand. We have always planned to adopt. Our hearts are so on fire for it...more now than ever (and I don't consider it a "plan b," but previously, it's been more of a "wait until we have biological kids and then save up and adopt later" kind of thing). We are starting to wonder if God is leading us in that direction now. That maybe we aren't getting pregnant because there is a child that God wants to bless us with via adoption and we wouldn't pursue that avenue yet if we had biological kids first. We are starting to analyze everything. We know that there are many practical reasons to wait to start the process (though we know that it is a lengthy process), such as the fact that Steve graduates in May and we don't know where we will be ending up. Or the fact that we don't have the finances set aside yet. Or that we want this SO badly that we don't want it to be our own desires, but the Lord's leading, and when it is such a strong desire, how can you tell? BUT...we also know that we don't serve a God that works only in the practical realm. He is the God of the Universe! In fact, He does His most awesome work when things seem quite impractical or impossible. So we don't want to underestimate what He can and will do if it is truly His leading.

I want to be obedient, and I want to further God's kingdom. I want to be fruitful and multiply, regardless of the avenue. Most of all, I want to be a mommy. I am having a hard time being patient...

4 Years Ago...

2009-10-11T18:44:00.005-05:00

Wow...has it been 4 years already? Steve and I celebrated our 4th Anniversary on Thursday (October 8th). He surprised me by sending flowers at work. Aren't they beautiful?!

Happy Anniversary, baby! I love you!

So much to catch up on...

2009-09-20T20:23:00.011-05:00

Man, I have waited too long to post. Where did the summer go? Our trip to MN in June (pics still to be posted...stay tuned) seems like a second ago in some ways, yet in others, it seems like forever. What else have we been up to??

July brought a visit from Steve's parents to help us with some big projects around the house. We are getting it on the market just in case we move when Steve finishes school in May. YES...I said May! I am so excited that we are on the home stretch. Less than 8 months to go! It has been no secret that this has been much tougher than I thought it would be, being the breadwinner of our family while Steve is in school. So many things I would have done differently, yet also a great many things God has used to refine us (and continues to do so). Anyhow, back to the projects. The guys did some awesome stuff that week. They cut out a portion of the carpet by the back door and installed wood flooring.

Didn't they do a great job? They also fixed our cement step going out to our back patio. And they hung our bikes in the garage. It's a huge relief to have those things finished, and of course it makes it even more bittersweet to be selling the house, having it fixed up so nicely. But we will love the freedom and ability to pick up and move quickly if needed, so it will all be worth it.

In August, I traveled to Houston for work for 2 weeks. It was pretty neat, as I was traveling with the President of our company (Chesapeake Midstream Partners, L.P.) and other bigwigs from Chesapeake. When you travel with them, you travel in style. We stayed at the Four Seasons in downtown Houston (beautiful!) and were able to walk to the office where we worked during the week (my dream come true...I would love to either work from home or walk to work everyday). It was a great experience, even though I missed Steve and Norman tons. During my time in Houston, I was also introduced to my new favorite Starbucks drink...decaf skinny caramel macchiato. DELISH!!! I could drink those everyday, twice a day actually!

Soon after I returned from Houston, Steve took off for a week in California to visit his family. It was a great "last hurrah" before he had to start school again. Most of his time was spent at his folks' condo in Mammoth Lakes and he got lots of great fishing, hiking, and relaxing in. He even brought our "son" Junior with him (actually, Junior snuck in his suitcase...I have no idea how that happened). A little background on Junior: Steve gave him to me while we were dating back in October 2004. I decided his face looked like it was real, and started turning his head (and subsequently freaking Steve out...haha). Long story short...Junior has taken on a personality all his own and has become a part of the family. He's been a bit neglected since Norman came along (poor Junior), but he still makes an appearance every so often. He even came on Steve's dad's retirement flight with us and flew up in the cockpit with Captain (Grandpa) Irwin. Ok, so Junior could almost get a post of his own. Our families have embraced our silliness and played right along. Anyway...even Junior caught a fish while in Mammoth with Steve!

I wish I could have gone with the boys to Mammoth (I have actually never been there in the summertime), but I had to work since I used my vacation for our trip to MN. Norman and I did, however, get to have some fun and met some of my family up in Kansas City for the weekend. There were 5 of us, and 4 dogs. It was such a great weekend. We played cards, dominoes, and just hung out. So refreshing! And the best part about it was that on my way home from Kansas City, Norman and I got to stop at the airport to pick up Steve!

Steve started his senior year at OU August 24th and the past 4 weeks have been a whirlwind! He's already 1/4 done with the semester (the end can't come soon enough). My brother Eric came to stay with us over Labor Day weekend, and while he was here, we got a phone call from my sister with some exciting news...SHE IS ENGAGED!!! Her fiance Matt proposed on the beach in Hilton Head, SC. My sister is a beach girl, so Matt could not have picked a better place. I am so pumped for them! We love Matt so much, and are excited to officially have him as a part of our family! Here is a picture of the cute couple (this was taken while we were all in MN in June).

Perfect couple, yes?? Matt has made my sister so happy, and I love seeing the sparkle in her eyes. God is good! So now we have another thing to look forward to in addition to Steve's graduation this spring!

Finally, last weekend I headed back to Kansas City for a girls weekend with my best friend Gretchen. I will post all of the fun pictures from that trip (see how much you have to look forward to?!?) soon. MN trip first, I think.

This weekend, we had the pleasure of celebrating this sweet boy's first birthday! A wonderful way to spend our Saturday afternoon! I have also been working very hard at getting our house ready to be listed. I'm having a great time selling things on Craig's List...and our pile to go to Goodwill is massive! If I had it in me, I'd do a garage sale, but I just don't think that's feasible...so Goodwill donation it is!

Whew! That is my last few months in a nutshell! I promise I won't keep you waiting long for the MN trip post and the KC Girls' Weekend post! Until then...

Another Field Trip!

2009-07-12T19:17:00.010-05:00

Ok, so you probably think all I do at work is go on fun trips...this is only partially true :) I promise I work hard (and some long days! But that's another story...) but I am so blessed to work for a company that I absolutely love. And with it comes some pretty awesome perks, I'm not gonna lie. So my field trip last week was exciting. We went to tour some pre-fabrication plants in Guthrie, Chickasha, Elmore City (all in OK), and Gainesville, TX. All in one day. How did we cover so many miles in one day, you ask? Oh, did I forget to mention our mode of transportation????

Yes, we were taken around in a helicopter all day! It was so cool. I must admit, however, that I probably never need to ride in a helicopter again...my tummy was not as excited about the trip as the rest of me was. Luckily, no puking was involved, but I sure did wish I had packed the dramamine. BUT, it was well worth it to be able to go on such an adventure. I guess I wasn't meant to be a medi-flight nurse. Or a news traffic reporter. Or anything involving air-flight. Anyhow...back to the field trip. First, let me show you a picture of our gorgeous Chesapeake campus. Our CEO designed it after a college campus and I think it is beautiful!

Look at us all so hard at work while we waited for the helicopter to pick us up.

Aren't we dedicated employees? And yes...I do have a pink Chesapeake hard hat. Don't you love it?! Here is a picture of the entire lucky group of tourists.

We had the coolest pilots. They flew over our houses--well, if they were on the way, which mine was! Ours is the house in the middle. You can also see our neighbors in their backyard...haha. BTW...the houses on both sides of us are waiting for lucky new owners...any takers? You'd have some FABULOUS neighbors.

We also flew over the OU Football Stadium...

And...my sweet husband's home away from home...the National Weather Center (he was actually standing in that little roundabout taking our picture as we flew over!)...

What a once-in-a-lifetime experience, huh? Here are some more pictures from the day...Oklahoma actually has some pretty beautiful landscapes...who knew?!

Field Trip!

2009-06-19T20:47:00.011-05:00

I went on my first Chesapeake business trip this week! It is actually the first time I have traveled for work since my little (well, 15 months...not so little) stint in California. This trip was to Fort Worth, TX...um, not quite the same as Orange County, CA, but still fun.

Since I started working at Chesapeake 9 months ago (wow, has it been that long?), I have learned so much about the oil & gas industry. This trip was an opportunity to see some things in action. My new position as a Financial Analyst for Business Strategy & Development allows me to view every facet of the business. My boss characterizes it well when he describes it as trying to take a drink from a fire hydrant. There is so much to learn! Seeing things in action first-hand was fascinating. Here are some pics...they were all taken with my BlackBerry, and some through the window of the truck, so excuse the quality. :)

This is a Pig Trap. I just love the name, so I had to take a picture. The pig trap (complete with a pig launcher and pig receiver...teehee) is used to clean the pipeline.

Here is one of our large Compressor Facilities. This is where they compress gas so they can send it to market down the pipeline. It is LOUD! Since this particular one is in an urban area, they had to build a building around the actual compressors to silence them. It's amazing how effective that is!

Here is another Compressor Facility. This one is in a more rural area, so no building required. See how huge those compressors are?

I also got to visit a construction site. These guys are hard at work...

Here is a pretty neat picture of several feet of pipe all strung together. The guy standing there is actually in the process of x-raying the pipe to be sure it fits regulatory and safety standards.

And...I just had to take a picture of my "Do Not Disturb" sign at the hotel. It cracked me up!

God really has blessed me with a great job at an amazing company!

Mother's Day Reflections...

2009-05-10T18:08:00.009-05:00

I'm not gonna lie...last Mother's Day was sure more fun than this year's. It was on Mother's Day that I announced to my extended family that we were expecting this little one:

I was supposed to be celebrating my first "real" Mother's Day this year. It kinda hurts not to be. Our pregnancy was a suprise, and we actually hadn't planned on starting our family until after Steve finished school, so I never was in that club of the ones longing to be moms on Mother's Day...it was more of a "can't wait until it's my turn" day. But once we were expecting, we were so excited, and we now long for a child that still has not come. It seems like more of a loss than it has before. Steve and I cannot wait to add to our family, and we know that God is going to bless our socks off with children, but man is it hard to see the timing of it all...especially on days like today.

However, even with my own dreams that have not yet been realized, I rejoice with my friends who are celebrating their first Mother's Day today. Jessica is the proud mommy of sweet little Ian, Starling is enjoying her precious Ethan, and Rebecca is finally getting to spend Mother's Day with Eli in her arms! God is so good!

And, of course, I have to thank the Lord for my own Mom.

I have been blessed with a Mom that took such interest in her three kids. She was always helping out at school functions, even homeschooled me for two years. My Mom was also "mom" to many of my friends who weren't as lucky as I was to have parents so involved. Thank you, Momma, for investing so much of yourself into us.

Not only did God bless me with a great Mother, I am also one of the lucky ones that has an amazing Mother-in-Law. I can't wait to make both of them proud Grandmas as well. Steve and I have such an awesome heritage that we will be honored to carry on. Thanks to both of my Moms (and Grandmas...and Aunts - hey, it takes a whole family). I love you!

A Day Brightener...

2009-05-04T18:55:00.004-05:00

I got a new job at work (which is a blessing!) a couple weeks ago and have been so very busy and super exhausted (though in a good way). I will write about the new job another day. Anyhow...today -- and it's only Monday -- started to get pretty overwhelming. But, as I got home and logged on to Facebook, I saw this link...it made my day! Watch the whole thing -- it's only about a minute long -- and it is sure to brighten yours, too!

The Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN, has a piano in the atrium that people can play. Someone captured this sweet couple playing the piano. It is awesome.

Busy Weekend continued...Saturday!

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Now that has been a week...I'd better get blogging! I have been so much better about documenting things, so I cannot get behind in my blogging, or my material will be outdated! Haha.

Last Saturday, Steve had to go on a field trip for his Hydrology class (not his ideal way to spend his Saturday...his group's assignment was to determine how fast the soil absorbed water...watching paint dry, anyone?). Anyhow, since I was sans-husband for the day, I took the opportunity to hang out with my friend Laurie. I met Laurie last summer during The Sound of Music, and I have to say, God blessed me so much by bringing her into my path. She, Siobhan, and I have had some fun times over this past year and I am so thankful for them!

Laurie and I started our day at the Medieval Fair at Reeves Park in Norman. If you ever want to see some very interesting folk, I'd say a Medieval Fair is probably your best bet. We saw people with pet dogs, as well as people with pet snakes, parrots...you name it. All walking from booth-to-booth at the park. We had a blast, though. Some highlights of our experience:

A mermaid

Camel Rides

A hilarious Acrobatic Danger Show (they were awesome)

There were also cute little girls doing Irish Dancing (think Riverdance), Random Jugglers, tons of windblown tents (did I mention the 800 mph wind?), and...of course, my favorite part: FAIR FOOD! Here is Laurie enjoying her very first Fried Twinkie. I was also able to partake. Delish.

Once we'd had our fill of the Medieval Fair, we walked around the shops in Downtown Norman (found a wonderful quaint little coffee shop that I will definitely be re-visiting!).

And, as if the day couldn't get any better...Laurie suggested we stop at Atwoods on the way home. It's a local "Fleet Farm" kind of store and they have chicks and bunnies around Easter time (not sure if they have them year-round or not). Oh my goodness, we had a blast there.

I held the sweetest little bunny:

One of the workers came up while I was oohing and awwwwing over this sweet bunny and I asked, "What do you do with a little bunny like this?" Mistake. Her response..."Oh, you can do lots of things...I have some great recipes for Rabbit Stew." ?!?!?!?!? Really? I think not. This is why I am not a farmer...I cannot put faces to the things I eat.

And I held a squirmy little duckling (love the webbed feet!):

But the highlight of the ENTIRE DAY was this little guy:

I named him Edward. He fell asleep in my hands as soon as I picked him up! He was precious, and quite a little runt. I even called Steve and begged him to let me keep him. He was not a fan. But seriously, how cute is Edward?!?! So fun.

We had such a fun day. Thanks for the adventures, Laurie, and I can't wait for the next one!

Busy Weekend!

2009-04-05T20:28:00.020-05:00

Wow, did I have a busy weekend. So many fun things to blog about, and I was so proud of myself for actually bringing my camera to document the adventures. I will actually split this up into a few posts (gotta save the goods, ya know?)...starting with my Friday night date with the sweet boy who is the star of *this* blog. His mom gave me permission to post about our fun evening.

Look at him! Can you imagine a better Friday night?

I even captured some fun video. It's always embarrassing to hear myself talk in these, but hey, Ian had fun and that's all that counts, right?

And here he is right before enjoying a delicious dinner of baby food carrots. I think he digs the getting ready to eat routine, don't you?

Such concentration. He's basically a genius.

I worked in a daycare for 3 years and babysat for many years...I have taken care of a lot of kiddos in my day. This little man is seriously one of the easiest. I love my Oklahoma nephew. Thanks, Jessica and Justin, for letting me hang with your sweet boy!

Epic Winter Storm 2009...

2009-03-28T12:19:00.007-05:00

I chuckle at my own title, because every time any kind of weather event happens in Oklahoma, the news stations are all over it with some catchy phrase...whether it ends up actually being a big deal or not is determined later, and usually it is determined that it was not really a big deal. Hehe. So although (here in the OKC metro, at least) this is really no winter storm as predicted (but I have to give a shout out to my weatherman husband, who was right on with his forecast...as is the case typically), it was still fun to see some big flakes coming down this morning! The Oklahoma Panhandle has some pretty huge drifts, actually, but we are missing out on all the fun. I say fun only because it's a weekend and I don't have to drive anywhere. I took a little video to share the moment with all of you...

*Disclaimer: Sorry about the bit with Norman relieving himself at the beginning of the video. I didn't really realize I had such a wide-angle until I watched it later. Oops!

Norman really does like the snow, as evidenced here in our trip to the mountains last year.

However, today's type of snow apparently is not his cup of tea. I believe this may be a more accurate picture of his day today.

*Disclaimer #2: We actually don't let him on this chair sans blanket...he has a different chair (i.e. throne) with complete blanket coverage :)

No Girls' Night For Us...

2009-03-27T19:17:00.006-05:00

We have been so spoiled this winter here in Oklahoma...but for some reason, winter wanted to give us one last taste before allowing spring to arrive for good. Unfortunately, it was at the expense of my fun night planned with these lovely ladies:

Thanks, Jessica, for letting me swipe this pic! The four of us have gotten together a couple times over the last few months (and we were even adding one more to the mix tonight), and it sure is fun to have girlfriends to hang out with. I am blessed with the best husband in the world (sorry ladies, he's taken), but I am confident that God gives women girlfriends to help balance us out :)

Ladies, I'm sorry our evening did not work out as planned, but I am looking forward to our next get-together!

Meanwhile, I am going to make some Hot Chocolate (yum!) and settle in for some snuggling time with my boys and some OU Basketball. Go Sooners!

A Night at the Theatre...

2009-03-07T13:53:00.006-06:00

Last night, my friend Andrea and I went to see one of our castmates from AGYG in Edmond North High School's production of The Wizard of Oz. It was so much fun and Leah was an amazing Dorothy. A talented--and very funny--cast, the elaborate sets, a fly wire to add a fun dimension to the tornado scene and Glinda's entrances/exits, and, of course, an adorable dog playing the role of Toto made it a fabulous show. It sure made me miss being on the stage, and it also brought back so many memories of my own experience as Dorothy almost 6 years ago (I would reprise that role in a second...hopefully I'll have the chance to someday!). Good times :) They have two more shows today to close out the run...2:00 pm (oops, it's 2 right now. Better hurry!) and 8:00 pm.

Go see it!

Happy Valentine's Day!

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Do I have the sweetest husband in the world? Yes, I think so...

Pray for Abby...

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I'd like to introduce you to an incredible family--one that I have not yet actually met in person. I have been following the Riggs family blog for quite awhile, actually, but feel led to send out a call to prayer, as this precious girl battles cancer (and many effects on top of it). Her family is just amazing...for me to try to explain would not do them justice, so just go and check them out here and see for yourself. God is truly using them in incredible ways, and they are real people with humble hearts and extraordinary faith. And...I just found out they live in Oklahoma! I totally want to see how I can help (me and about a zillion others, I'm sure). Please pray for little Abby and her family...they are a blessing to so many, even while they are dealt this very excruciating situation.

And...the Joys of Oklahoma Winters!

2009-01-27T14:20:00.008-06:00

Well, winter has finally hit Oklahoma. We have been spoiled with a very mild last few months, so I definitely can't complain about our first real taste of winter on January 26th-27th...but I thought I'd share a few pics. This looks like snow (for all my Minnesota readers), but it's actually about 1/3" of ice coated with 2-3 inches (and counting) of sleet.

Here's a view from our backyard. Notice the half frozen pond. Very interesting...don't get your ice skates out quite yet :)

Beautiful. Well, not so much to drive on, which is why I am staying home today (I have been checking my work email frequently, though!). Weather like this makes it perfect to snuggle up in one of these, with a good book, some hot chocolate, and, of course, TLC daytime, with a little bit of Facebook mixed in!

The Joys of Minnesota Winters...

2009-01-17T12:21:00.005-06:00

I came across this blog of a news reporter in Minnesota (my homeland!) and it is hilarious...you must watch this video clip.

P.S. When I talked to my best friend Gretchen yesterday morning, she was talking about morning temps of MINUS 26...and that is not the windchill, my friends (and she even lives at the very southern end of MN)! We are a tough people, aren't we? Or is it crazy? I was actually born in Hawaii, and my parents' famous quote is "We left Hawaii and moved back to paradise!" Not so sure I agree with that one, but I can certainly not complain of my one winter day in the teens here in Oklahoma :o)

2008 Recap

2009-01-16T21:26:00.011-06:00

It's amazing how fast a year can seem as you recap all of the fun (and even not-so-fun) times in one place, isn't it? Here is a copy of our Christmas letter that actually turned into a New Year's letter :o) I tried to scan the letter with the cool backdrop that was with it, but it just didn't work. Here's the text...

Greetings and Happy New Year!

2008 was filled with many blessings for the Irwins, as well as a few hardships. However, as we consider the past year, it is evident that God has blessed us immensely. A quick recap of our 2008:

We were able to wrap up our January with a whirlwind trip to Hawaii as we celebrated Steve’s Dad’s retirement as a pilot with American Airlines. We were blessed to be on Captain Irwin’s final flights to and from Hawaii. Though it was a very short trip (less than 24 hours in Hawaii, actually), we were so lucky to be able to share in that special time with family.

In March, we were blessed to be able to send Steve for a “Guys Week” with his Dad, where they spent time skiing in Mammoth Lakes (which I would venture to say may be the favorite place of each of them). From what I heard, it was a great time, and I even heard rumors of some beard-growing from my normally clean-shaven husband. Now if that isn’t a Guy’s Week, what is?

We received a surprise blessing in April, as we discovered we were expecting our first child! We were so excited and anticipated a December 21st arrival. Unfortunately, with that blessing came one of our hardships of the year…over Memorial Day weekend in May, Liesl miscarried our baby 10 weeks and 1 day into the pregnancy. How amazing, though, as we truly were lifted up by the prayers and support of our family and friends from all over the country. Thank you, Lord, for our friends and family! May was also the official half-way point of Steve’s schooling, as he completed his 2nd year at the University of Oklahoma’s School of Meteorology. He has continued his employment with the National Severe Storms Lab, even taking on a leadership role with the summer S.H.A.V.E. (Severe Hazards Analysis and Verification Experiment) project and gaining some valuable experience!

June was a fun-filled month for Liesl, as she had the opportunity to participate in a professional musical production of The Sound of Music with Lyric Theatre of Oklahoma City. She was in the Nun Chorus, and made some valuable friendships through the experience.

In July, we were blessed with the opportunity to take a little vacation up to Branson, MO. Norman got to stay home with Grandpa and Grandma Irwin. It was the first time in Branson for both of us, and we really enjoyed it! We took a dinner cruise along the river, visited a couple wineries, spent a lot of time along the shops at the Promenade (highly recommend that!), and just enjoyed each other while Steve didn’t have to think about school/work, and Liesl had some time off work.

In August, before Steve started his Junior year of school, we had the opportunity to take a camping trip in some record heat. We made some memories, that’s for sure, with a heat index of 112 most of the time. Lots of cold showers, and sweating. Still, we do love camping and it was a wonderful way to wrap up our summer. Liesl was also blessed to be able to participate in another musical, Annie Get Your Gun, at the Jewel Box Theatre in Oklahoma City during August/September. She performed with that theatre last year, and it was fun to re-connect and also make new friends!

September brought some change. After almost 2 years with the Department of Surgery at the OU Health Sciences Center, Liesl was offered a too-good-to-pass-up opportunity with Chesapeake Energy Corporation. It is a great company that values their employees and she is really enjoying it. Another huge blessing.

In October, we were blessed to spend some more time with extended family as we headed to Colorado to be a part of Steve’s cousin’s wedding, and then we celebrated our 3rd Anniversary on October 8th. In November we had the privilege of hosting Liesl’s parents and brother for Thanksgiving. We sure miss our families, so we cherish the times we get to spend with them.

December has come and gone already…it’s hard to believe another year has passed. We wish your families many blessings as we celebrate the birth of God’s Son. In a time where the world has seen a lot of change and many hardships, it is a comfort to know we serve a God who is not surprised by any of this, and—better yet—has it under his sovereign control. What a blessing that is!

Hope you and your families had a wonderful holiday season, and we wish you a happy 2009!
With love,
Steve and Liesl Irwin

Annie Get Your Gun - 4 Months Late

2009-01-02T22:00:00.003-06:00

Ok, so I promised about 4 months ago that I'd post pictures of Annie Get Your Gun...and as a part of my New Year's Resolution to blog more (I just made that up...I don't do New Year's Resolutions...but I really will try to blog more), I am finally making good on that promise. I can't believe 4 months have passed since my last show. Time has flown (sorta).

I had such a great time with this show...the cast was probably one of my favorites of the shows I've done in Oklahoma. And it's a good thing we liked each other, because the run was 4 weeks long with 22 shows (only two "off days" each week). The run was a huge success, and it was quite fun to do another show with the Jewel Box Theatre!

So...without further ado...enjoy these pics!

Go visit these people...

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...and wish them a HUGE congratulations! Ben and Rebecca are officially Eli's parents! I couldn't be more excited for them. Little Eli is one lucky (and very handsome, I must add) little man. God is so good!

Thank you, Lord, for blessing my friends with this gift of their new son!

Election Day 2008

2008-11-04T19:40:00.003-06:00

Happy Election Day! After we waited in line for almost 2 hours, we were able to cast our ballots. What a fun privilege it is to stand with hundreds of other people as we exercise this right that is often taken for granted here in America. My hubby wrote a great blog about the election and the hype that has surrounded it (especially this year). I think you should all read it. Right here.

Also, two pastors that I respect a lot have some wise words as well. Pastor David is the one that married Steve and me three years ago, and Pastor Ronnie is our current pastor. Both are very Godly men that seek God above everything...inspirational. Check out what they have to say here and here.

Norman's Best Buddy

2008-09-20T21:09:00.012-05:00

Our neighbors drove down to Texas to pick up their new boat today, so we said we'd go and let their dog Koby out a couple times today. Koby is also a beagle and he's Norman's best buddy :o) When Steve and I had our overnight date last April, Norman had a sleepover with Koby. We even got pictures of them together last year in their Halloween costumes (Norman was a bumblebee and Koby was a pumpkin). When we went over to let Koby out this evening, we brought Normie with us so they could run around together in the backyard...they had a wonderful time. Here are some pics of the cute puppies...

Lots of sniffing and territory-marking...

Norman blinked. Haha.

After his fun playdate, Norman is all tuckered out. Here he is snuggling with his Daddy.

This is the look we get from him when we decide to treat him like a human instead of a dog (but he IS part human, seriously!).

Isn't he cute? We love our Norman.

After a long absence...

2008-09-16T18:48:00.004-05:00

My goodness, it's been too long since I last posted...and there is so much to update you on! Since I last wrote, I got a new job, finished a long run of "Annie Get Your Gun," and...well, I guess that has been all, now that I have it written down. But it's been BUSY! Our AGYG run lasted 4 weeks (Wednesdays through Sundays). Late nights, combined with early mornings for my new job (I have a bit worse of a commute, so I like to leave super early to try to avoid traffic). Pictures from the show coming soon, and also a longer update on my new job at Chesapeake.

Just wanted to let you all know I'm still alive and kickin...just a bit exhausted and not having much time on the computer at home...

Stay tuned!

Camping Trip!

2008-08-11T09:04:00.007-05:00

I’m a week behind in posting about our camping trip (oh yeah, and I still haven’t posted about our trip to Branson, have I?? Yikes!). Last weekend, Steve and I took a nice long weekend—Friday through Tuesday—and planned a camping trip. Of course, we happened to choose the hottest weekend of the entire summer…no joke. We originally planned to camp at Greenleaf State Park in Eastern Oklahoma, but decided it would be dangerously hot there, so we toyed with the idea of moving our little vaca north…WAY north. Like “surprise my family in Minnesota” north. However, at midnight on Thursday, I was pretty stressed about driving that far for just a few days, so we ended up on a trek to the Lake of the Ozarks State Park in Missouri. What a beautiful campground! Look at our campsite…right on the lake! Not bad for $9 a night.

See this nice little set up of our chairs with a prime lake view?

Don’t let that fool you. We spent very little time there. I brought 3 books…could hardly even read, it was so hot. We had a heat index of 120. CRAZY. We tried to cool off in the lake, but it was actually quite shallow (no higher than thigh deep, even out to the middle), so the water was pretty toasty (probably at least in the 90’s). We did venture out in the lake with Norman, hoping to cool him down (he sure is a cute little swimmer, minus the “I hate my life” look that he kept giving us for putting him in the water). We were walking in ankle or knee-deep mud. We sure did make memories! Norman was our little trooper.

He got several cold showers under the water spigots. We also took several cold showers ourselves…turned out to be the highlights of our days. Haha. I don’t think either of us has ever sweat so much…but hey, we were camping…you are supposed to be dirty, right?

We (and by “we” I mean Steve) did manage to get a fire going, even with wood that was so wet from the humidity that it was sizzling instead of burning. And our screenhouse came in so handy for keeping out the bugs in that crazy humidity.

Even though the heat was oppressive, both Steve and I agreed that our first camping trip with just the 3 of us was a success. And we were the only tent campers brave (read: insane) enough to stay past Sunday in our campground area. Several other campsites had dates of Monday or Tuesday as their departure dates. However, after we got back from the store on Sunday (ok, I admit it, we went to the Petco in town so all three of us could have some a/c for a bit), the campground was all but deserted. We almost thought they were kicking people out because of the heat. Nope. People were bailing left and right. We actually did leave one day early, too, though. We left Monday morning. Later this fall, we are definitely taking another camping trip and we will be so excited to need a fire to stay warm, and to fight over who gets to have Norman cuddle up to them in the middle of the night for warmth. We now consider ourselves professionals.

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 8

2008-07-29T08:03:00.005-05:00

So I was going to post yesterday with the words "I'm at a loss" (and I didn't mean the weight...haha). I had still stayed the same! Man. That "late twenties metabolism shift" must have hit. However, I weighed in this morning (for fun) and was down to 128! I'll take that. I still want to track the weight, but I am so into this running thing now, that I am changing things up a bit. I will now track my weekly runs. I am trying for 3x per week on the weekdays, and at least once on the weekends. Since I have been rehearsing for "Annie Get Your Gun" in the evenings, and the fact that it's been in the 100's for a LONG time now (with no relief in sight), I am having to move my running time to the mornings. Seriously. 6:00 AM. Never thought I'd be one of THOSE people...haha.

On a sad note...remember that super cool Nike iPOD kit I have? Well, there are these special Nike shoes (of course, that's just good marketing) that have a special place for the sensor to go--inside the sole of the shoe. I have no desire to buy these special shoes (some may call me cheap, I like the words "wisely frugal" haha) when I have perfectly good tennis shoes already (actually, I do need new shoes now, but the stubbornness in me says I will still not be purchasing said Nike shoes). So anyhow, I had just been slipping the sensor under my laces, thinking it would stay in there. And it did. Until one day that it didn't. I have lost my sensor. I even retraced my run the very next day when I discovered it missing (and it was a long one!) and it was nowhere to be found. BUMMER! I need to purchase a new kit. A small pothole in my road to running success.

In light of this Ode to Running, I need to throw a huge shout out to my fabulous hubby Steve. He is basically amazing in every way. But since this post is based on my running, I'll stick to that aspect of his wonderfulness. Now Steve is not one to enjoy getting up early (neither am I). He is usually up late doing homework, or just winding down from his day, so when I leave for work in the morning, he is still dreaming away. Well, since I started this running thing and had to move to the morning slot, he will wake up and run with me! We live in a good neighborhood, but I still just feel safer when he's with me, so this means so much to me! Plus, that extra hour we have together in the morning is such a day-brightener for me. Honestly, it makes my whole day better (and those that know my work situation know that it's a huge blessing for my day to start off better). Steve could easily stick with his own schedule and sleep while he can (he is not one to be able to fall back asleep after he's started his day). But he gets up with me, supporting my goal of keeping with this running habit. I just love him. Speaking of my awesome husband, I still need to blog about our fun weekend away in Branson. Stay tuned...

Without further ado, my quick summary for Week 8.
Starting weight: 132.0 lbs
Current weight: 128.0 lbs
Goal weight: 120.0 lbs (or less...)

Now, go cheer the other RagamuffinToppers on...

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 7

2008-07-21T08:20:00.003-05:00

So...um, I'm not exactly sure what the deal is, but I seem to be gaining weight as I exercise more. I have run 4 times each week and am feeling great about that. I do hope the weight starts to fall off, but I am really happy about the new exercise habit I am forming!

Here are my stats as of this morning:
Starting weight: 132.0 lbs
Current weight: 131.0 lbs
Goal weight: 120.0 lbs (or less...)

Not much else to report. I start rehearsals for "Annie Get Your Gun" this week, so I might need to start running in the mornings (yikes!), since I will be going straight from work to rehearsal. I really want to keep up with my running, though, so I'll do what I gotta do, right? :)

Some More Funny SOM Pics

2008-07-17T14:37:00.005-05:00

Got these from a fellow nun. See what happens when you are only in 3 scenes for a total of about 17 minutes? LOTS of free time for these crazy antics. Haha...enjoy!

Next up? I just found out I made it into the cast of "Annie Get Your Gun" at the Jewel Box Theatre in Oklahoma City. Rehearsals start Monday...show opens mid-August. More fun theater adventures to be had!

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 5

2008-07-07T13:18:00.007-05:00

I hopped on the scale today and, although I did lose 1/2 pound, I was a tad bit disappointed. Only because I was keeping tabs throughout the week and Sunday morning I weighed in at 128...so today's 130 was no fun. BUT...the bigger reason I'm doing this is to keep myself accountable for what should lead to the natural weight loss, which is my goal to work out more. I did achieve this! Here's a quick run-down of my week:

Goal was to walk/run 3 times last week. GOAL ACHIEVED! I actually walked and/or ran 4 times!
Goal was to walk/run 1 time over the weekend. GOAL ACHIEVED! Saturday morning, my hubby and I went running and then came back and picked up the dog to walk him. Lots o' exercise that day! Then, on Sunday, I woke up early for church and went for a run/walk with Norman.

So...a pic and a quick rundown of my progress so far:

Quick summary:
Starting weight: 132.0 lbs
Current weight: 130.0 lbs
Goal weight: 120.0 lbs (or less...)

This week will be more of the same, in terms of exercising goals. However, we will have a change of venue! Hubby and I head to Branson on Wednesday for a mini-vaca (thanks to FIL and MIL) until Sunday, while Norman will be spoiled by Grandpa and Grandma Irwin at home. Our plans include a Waterpark, a Pizza Cruise on a Riverboat, and a trip to the Winery. Can it get any better?! I will be sure to take some pics so you can all enjoy our trip vicariously through us.

In the meantime, please go and offer some encouragement to my fellow ragamuffins.

The Sound of Music

2008-07-01T08:31:00.003-05:00

Well...it was a fabulous run. Though I got very little sleep the last couple weeks, it was sure great to be on stage again. And to be in a show of this caliber...AMAZING. We ended with two great performances on Saturday (matinee and evening) and ended up performing for huge crowds (opening night on Tuesday was 1700, and I think the rest of the shows were comparable). I am now even more excited to audition for another show next week! The theater bug is one that bites you and hangs on...I love it...and have missed it. I made some wonderful new friends! Here are some pictures--my first attempt at a slide show. Enjoy! Some crazy stuff happens when you get a bunch of Nuns together :o)

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 4

2008-06-30T15:41:00.003-05:00

I'm having a hard time uploading images for my week 4 post, but it's okay because I was basically stagnant this week. I didn't lose, but didn't gain either. It was a busy week of performances, but I was able to walk at work twice (my goal was 3 times) and walked/ran BOTH days this weekend (my goal was once). So though I didn't really move weight-wise, I am pleased with the physical activity. Now that our performances are done, I hope to walk/run at least 3 times this week after work and at least once this weekend. Morning walks/runs on Saturdays with my hubby are my favorite.

Sorry for the lack luster post, but I wanted to be sure to at least get something down for the record. Please go check this out to see how everyone else is doing this week...

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 3

2008-06-23T11:49:00.009-05:00

Well, my week was a bit rough, as anticipated. However, I did pretty well considering a) I was not home (most) evenings to walk/run due to rehearsals and b) we had TWO parties at the office last week that involved tasty food (my willpower--or none--and food...not friends. Or is it that they are great friends?). Anyhow, all that to say that I STILL LOST! 0.5 lb, but still! Here is proof, taken this morning:

So this week, here's my plan. We have an even busier week with S.O.M. opening tomorrow night and shows through Saturday. HOWEVER, I will walk at work no fewer than 3 times this week, and I will walk/run no less than one day this weekend.

Quick summary:
Starting weight: 132.0 lbs
Current weight: 130.5 lbs
Goal weight: 120.0 lbs (or less...)

Oh! Almost forgot to mention. Over the weekend, I broke out my Nike Ipod Sports Kit...it's awesome. Now I just have to figure out how to download to my computer.

We are truckin' right along! I'm feeling more motivated...go see if my fellow Ragamuffintoppers are also...

Contentment Issues...

2008-06-16T11:15:00.002-05:00

I think I need to paste this on my forehead or something...so I see it and internalize it...ALL. THE. TIME.

"...for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength."
-Philippians 4:11-13

RagamuffinTop Challenge...My Week 2

2008-06-16T10:30:00.006-05:00

Well, we have entered my second week of the RagamuffinTop Challenge and I lost...drum roll...a pound! I am now at 131 lbs.

Last Monday (I think) it was very mild here in OK (read: in the 70s instead of the 90s), so when I got home from work I realized I had no excuse not to take advantage of it and get out for a run. My running buddy for the evening was Norman (our devoted dog...always willing to "take one for the team" when there is a walk/run involved).

I also got out for a walk/run on Thursday, despite the mid-90s temps. On Saturday, my new Nike Ipod Sports kit came in the mail, so I anticipate some more motivation as I can track my walks/runs each week!

This next couple weeks will be tough for me in terms of the Challenge. I will be heading straight from work to rehearsals (this week) and performances (next week) for The Sound of Music. However, I will try to get some good brisk walks in during the workday, so I can get some physical activity in...must keep pressing on toward the goal!

I also apologize for lack of picture with this post. I bought a new camera battery yesterday, but it turned out to be the wrong one! Here's a quick summary, though:

Starting Weight: 132 lbs
Current Weight: 131 lbs
Goal Weight: 120 lbs (or less!)

My more non-quantitative goal, however, is just to get better at working out to keep my body healthy...the weight loss numbers help (just ask the buttons on my pants), but they are simply numbers to track my goal.

To see how other RagamuffinTop Challengers are doing...check this out if you'd like to send them some encouragement!

P.S. I would like to give a shout-out to my SIL Dawn, who celebrates a birthday today! Happy Birthday to my wonderful sister-in-law! And also, Happy Birthday to my friend Rebecca! Go wish them both a fabulous day!

The Hills Are Alive!

2008-06-11T14:30:00.005-05:00

Yesterday I had my first rehearsal as a member of the Nun Chorus for Lyric Theatre's The Sound of Music. It was amazing to be a part of such a professional theatre atmosphere. There are 40 of us in the Nun Chorus and my goodness, these ladies sounded AMAZING! We were pulling off some 6-part harmony in some songs. Very cool. I'm so excited to be a part of this group.

We have the rest of this week off, and will pick up rehearsals most days next week. The show runs from Tuesday, June 24th to Saturday, June 28th. If you are in the Oklahoma City area and need a fun night out, I invite you to come see the show. Ticket information is available here.

Funny Story about the nuns...we met at the theatre yesterday to get into costume for a publicity photo shoot before our rehearsal. We then drove to a church in the area to take the pictures. The looks we received were priceless...a caravan of cars full of nuns driving down the road. And as we were running across the street from the parking lot to the church courtyard, I felt like I was in Sister Act! Fun times.

RagamuffinTop Challenge...Who's With Me?

2008-06-09T15:53:00.016-05:00

So in my blog reading, I stumbled upon this fun challenge--The RagamuffinTop Challenge. Before we found out we were pregnant, Steve and I were finally starting to run again. I currently sit at 132 lbs and being 5'1" (and that's generous), that puts me into the higher part of normal to lower part of overweight. No good. So, I thought that maybe by posting on my blog weekly, I would be more accountable to start getting into better shape before our next baby attempt happens in...well, whenever that happens.

I bought one of those Nike iPod sports kits, which will help me track my runs and allow for more progress (well, between that and this blog of accountability, I bet I will have more progress!!).

Since I'm kinda starting late (the challenge started 2 weeks ago), bear with my first post:

Starting Weight: 132 lbs
Goal Weight: 120 lbs.

Here, the founder of the RagamuffinTop Challenge explains how it all works.

The rules are simply this:
1. You must have a measurable goal.
2. You must place a photo or video on your blog each weekend and give us the scoop on how you did.

Easy as that. Who's with me? Go Check it Out!!

How About Some Fun??

2008-06-06T08:48:00.003-05:00

Having the last two posts as somewhat depressing, I decided it's time for some fun. Check out this CD, and also this cool giveaway!

Check this out! You'll like it!

You can also go here and leave your link for a chance to win some great music!

Hardest Days So Far...

2008-05-28T16:31:00.006-05:00

I hadn't even officially announced our pregnancy yet on this blog, but I must now share some disheartening news. We lost our first baby 10 weeks 1 day into our pregnancy, and I had surgery yesterday to "finish the job." Everything was going perfectly, we had seen a strong heartbeat at 6 1/2 weeks along, and there was really nothing to prepare us for what has happened. We are obviously heart broken over our loss, but have been carried through by the prayers of many. Since we discovered that we were expecting, we have said that this baby is not ours to hold onto, but a gift from God for as long as His timing allows. Of course that was easier to say when there was still a little one inside, but we still cling to the truth that God is good...all the time. We have received so much support from loved ones (most of which are far away, but their prayers are felt in a very real way). We are thankful for the short time we had with our little one (of course the heartbreak kinda trumps the thankfulness right now, but that will ease), and we are hopeful for the future.

I must say that Steve has been my rock during this ordeal. This is very much his loss, too, yet he has carried me with such grace. I am amazed by him more and more...and cannot even describe how thankful I am for my wonderful husband. He sure will make a great Daddy someday.

Please Pray

2008-05-22T08:41:00.009-05:00

I just heard on the radio that Steven Curtis Chapman's youngest daughter Maria was killed in a horrible car accident yesterday evening. The Chapman family is an amazing example of God's work in the American family, and they are huge advocates for adoption (which I am passionate about as well). Steven Curtis Chapman's music touches many, and I know their family could use some prayers of their own right now.

Laminin

2008-04-30T09:56:00.004-05:00

With all the talk about Intelligent Design vs Macroevolution and the new Expelled movie coming out (which Steve and I would recommend...it was very good!), I thought this video was pretty cool. It's about 9 minutes long, but so neat...watch it and you will be blessed.

How Cool is This Quote?!?

2008-04-24T16:07:00.002-05:00

And even cooler...that we have a Savior like this...

"Our Savior kneels down and gazes upon the darkest acts of our lives. But rather than recoil in horror, he reaches out in kindness and says, 'I can clean that if you want.' "

-an excerpt from 3:16 by Max Lucado

I’m Dating Again...

2008-04-16T14:51:00.005-05:00

Dating my husband, that is...don't worry!

Last weekend was a fun one! I had my monthly stamping party with my neighborhood ladies on Friday night (love being crafty!) and then on Saturday/Sunday, Steve and I had a fun overnight date. I attended a Breast Cancer Luncheon last October and won a Hotel Gift Certificate in the silent auction. I gave it to Steve for Christmas and we finally got around to using it.

We dropped Norman off at our neighbor’s house so he could have a sleepover with his buddy Koby (their beagle) and headed to the Renaissance Hotel. The hotel was actually the worst part of our weekend (I would not stay there again, nor would I recommend it to anyone else…but hey, it was free—well, from the silent auction). We walked to Bricktown, which is a part of Downtown Oklahoma City that they have made into quite a nice area. There is a canal that runs through the middle of it and lots of restaurants, a movie theater, baseball stadium, and other fun things. We went do dinner at a nice Mexican restaurant and then walked to the movie theater get tickets for “Horton Hears a Who” (the 6:30 showing...are we getting old or what?! Haha). We then grabbed some Starbucks and walked along the canal. It was so great to have no agenda…we just did basically whatever we wanted. The movie was great and we splurged for a slice of Chicago-style pizza on the way back to the hotel. My favorite kind of date…we walked EVERYWHERE!

It was actually a short “vacation,” but I felt so refreshed when we got home on Sunday, it was like the weekend was so much longer! How fun to take a mini-vacation right in our own city...we will definitely do the Bricktown thing again!

A Day at the Zoo and the Races

2008-04-08T08:23:00.006-05:00

Steve had a very stressful week at school last week (3 tests! Like a mini-finals week!) so he took the ENTIRE weekend off of schoolwork. I was the lucky one who reaped the benefits! It's going to be so great in less than 5 weeks when he's off school for the whole summer! On Saturday, we went to the Oklahoma City Zoo and then when they closed, we headed across the street to Remington Park and watched some horse racing. Here are some pics of the zoo…taken with Steve’s camera phone.

This monkey was hilarious. Totally just lounging around (almost as if he was watching an exhibit of humans go by, rather than the other way around).

Also, in the same area as the giraffes (who were not out while we were there), there are ostriches with quite the personalities. This one was especially interested in its human visitors.
It was a perfect day, and the zoo was crowded (not too bad, though!). The evening started to get cooler, so we left Remington Park after about 5 races. We each had $10 to bet on the horses and I did not do so well…haha. Steve did win back $3 on his last race of the night. All in all…$17 spent on a fun evening…not too bad! Funny story about the races (and also an explanation on why it’s a good thing we do not gamble excessively). When we first got there and got the race program, Steve saw a horse named “Doppler Radar” in one of the races. Of course, being the weather guy that he is, he was definitely going to bet on that horse, regardless of the odds. Well, we had lost the first couple races, so he decided not to bet on good ole’ Doppler Radar, and went with the leading jockey instead. DOPPLER RADAR WON! And with the odds the way they were, that would have probably won the money back for both of us! Bummer. It was hilarious. Let that be a lesson to you all…gambling is just that…gambling. LOL. As long as you go in expecting to spend all the money you are betting with…you are going in with the right expectations! We had a fun time, and it’s always fun to see the gorgeous horses.